Protecting David 1
My name is Mark Chauvet. I was born in 1975 and was 26 when
this story started. After 8 years in the Army I was back
in civilian life, not where I wanted to be. I had always
thought that the Army was going to be my life, but when I
began to realize I was gay that screwed that up. I suppose
that I could have stayed in, but I just didn’t want
to deal with hiding who I was or torturing myself by watching
other Army studs, 24/7.
When I got out I came back home; well, almost to home. I
love fishing and had, years before, come upon this gorgeous
running through a fairly heavily wooded area of Central Wisconsin.
When the chance to rent a small farm property that bordered
on this stream came up I grabbed it. It was about 150 miles
from where my parents live and from where I grew up, but that
distance from my parents seemed about right. See, they don’t
know that I’m gay and I can’t imagine telling them.
My dad is retired Army and gay guys are not his favorite people,
so I’m guessing a fag son wouldn’t go over too
well. My mom would go along with whatever the program was,
but I just couldn’t deal with the look that I knew would
be in her eyes. Do I seem weak? Yeah, in a way I do to me,
too. At the time I didn’t really know much about being
a gay person. I had no gay friends and all of my gay sex activity
had been limited to jacking off to internet porn stuff and
now I had moved to a really rural area and couldn’t imagine
finding many gay people out here. Yeah I know, it sounds like
I was hiding, and I guess I was.
My first summer at the farm was glorious. I loved doing the
physical stuff that is needed to maintain any kind of farm
setting and that was part of the rental. They cut the monthly
rental quite a bit if I would maintain the buildings and not
nickel and dime them to death and I loved doing it. I had been
used to a lot of physical activity in the Army and it felt
great to me. Tramping through the woods and doing whatever
the fuck I wanted to do was definitely my way of living.
My house and what was left of the original farm sat on a low
hill. Walking down off the hill soon brought you to a woods
loaded with oak trees, some maple, and lots of scrub. Someone
long before me had worn a path through the woods down to the
When as I was approaching the stream I saw that there was already
someone fishing it. Now this stream is big enough for two guys
to work it, so I went to the bank and called to him, “Sir!
Would it be okay if I joined you?”
Well the guy turned and started to say something and then all
of a sudden his feet went right out from under him, and then
he’s like ass over bucket
into the stream! I start in wading toward him with the idea that I’ll help
him if he needs it and then he’s like back on the surface sputtering for
air. So he’s gasping for air and trying to get his footing, and I’m
reaching for him because the water is about three feet deep and I figure he could
drown if he doesn’t get up. Then he looks at my hand and up at damn if
and me he doesn’t go down again. Well, now I am really worried about the
guy drowning, so I steady myself and reach down and grab him, and just lift the
guy up and start carrying him to shore. I figure if I set him down on anything
less than dry land the dudes a goner.
I swear that up until this point I didn’t have gay thought number one in
my head but I’m beginning to notice that this gasping, sputtering, squirming
guy is kind of cute. That is, in a totally disorganized, clumsy befuddled sort
of way. What I’m looking at is a guy about 5’8” tall, maybe
150 pounds, gorgeous black hair that is now all over the place and green eyes
that are like emeralds. I know, emeralds; corny, but that’s what went through
my head. At this point I’m also thinking he’s maybe thirty years
old and since the gym shorts he’s wearing are now all wet and clingy, he’s
showing a pretty nice dick. Anyway, he’s been trying to form actual words
since I picked him up and he’s getting near to doing it, so I figure I
better put him down, and I do.
He’s looking up at me with those gorgeous eyes and says. “You scared
the fucking shit out of me!
I hunker down in front of him. “Man you scared the shit out of me, too.
I thought you were about to kill yourself in that stream. Sure you’re okay?” I
reach out and touch a spot of blood on his forehead. Now why the fuck did I do
that, how gay is that?
Out of the corner of my eye I watch him follow my hand as it moves towards his
forehead but he doesn’t move away he just watches. “Must have banged
your head a bit. Sure you’re okay?” He then ducks his head a bit
like maybe he’s embarrassed and says. “I feel like an idiot. You
know I’m not usually this klutzy.” Then he looks up at me and he’s
smiling shyly and all of a sudden I’m feeling something that I’ve
never felt before.
In these few seconds and for no damn reason at all, this guy has become the center
of my world. It’s like with a camera and you’ve focused in on one
object and everything else is just kind of hazy and I’m staring into those
eyes and someone please shoot me in the fucking head because those eyes are holding
me and it’s like I could fall into them and he’s still smiling up
at me and hell for all I know he could even be talking as for me I’m still
falling into those eyes. Suddenly I just sit back on my butt in the sand and
I’m still staring at this dude. He’s beginning to look a little worried.
I’m David.” He’s holding out his hand to me and I take it.
I’m Mark.” Well at least I can still talk. His hand is a lot smaller
than mine but it feels warm and good and god could I please hold this forever?
“I guess I should thank you for saving my life.” He’s
half kidding and half serious.
That’s okay. It was my pleasure.” Stupid fucking
thing to say. Idiot!
Mark?” He’s smiling a lot now.
Huh?” Bright, really bright.
Do you want to keep my hand or can I have it back?” God
I want to kiss him.
Oh shit! I’m really sorry. I guess we were both a little
klutzy today.” I let go of his hand slowly, and he pulls
it away, slowly.
He’s still staring at me and he’s regained his
composure, and now he’s more in control. More in control
than me, anyway, and I’m thinking that he’s got
the prettiest legs although with all that black hair maybe
pretty is the wrong word. Then he’s just smiling like
he’s asked me a question and maybe he did but I didn’t
hear it and I shake my head because I have to snap out of this.
I’m sorry did you say something.” Because I am
falling in love with you and can’t get my ears to work.
Fuck, I hope that I just thought that and didn’t say
I just asked if you were new. I haven’t seen you around.” He
was doing that head- ducking thing again, and absentmindedly
tearing blades of grass out of the ground.
I rented the place on top of that hill” and I pointed
in the general direction of my house. He nods his head like
he knows where it is, and we don’t say anything for a
minute. Then he says, “You know, the fishing totally
sucks today. I brought some sandwiches along and a couple of
beers. Would you like some lunch? As a saving my life thank
you.” He kept looking at the ground and then back at
me like he was unsure of my reaction.
I’d like that a lot.” I said. I could still feel
the stupid grin on my face but just couldn’t seem to
get it to go away.
Well” he said, “I’ve got my blanket laid
out over here.” He point to a little clearing just back
in the woods a bit. He stood up and turned around while brushing
sand and grass off his body. When he bent over to brush off
his legs and gave me a look at that butt I knew that I had
to have my cock in that ass. While walking over to the clearing
he turned and smiled at me and of course tripped and went head
first into a bush. Good Lord this boy needs watching! I helped
him up and was helping him brush himself off. He looked up
at me while I was brushing twigs out of his hair and I thought “Well,
fuck it!” and I took his face in my hands and slowly
brought my lips down to his. Thank God! He closed his eyes
and parted his mouth slightly. We kissed deeply and I sucked
his tongue into my mouth. David began making little moaning
noises and I lifted him up and wrapped his legs around my waist
while I walked with him over to the blanket. I gently laid
him on his back and laid down on top of him letting my arms
carry my weight. We kissed for several minutes then I pulled
back and stroked his hair while staring into those emerald
David was searching my face and said, “Where the fuck
did you come from?”
I bent down and started licking his ear. “Hmmm, live
up on the hill.”
No now wait a minute.” He stammered. “I need to
know something about you.”
He was pushing at my chest but he wasn’t making much
progress. At 6’4” and 195 pounds I was just a lot
bigger than he was. Most of that weight was in the form of
muscle, thanks to the Army, but he had this cute worried look
on his face and even though I had my knees between his legs
and a eight inch dick that now felt like steel, he had to want
me or it wasn’t going to happen. So as much as I hated
to, I laid down next to him with my head propped up on my hand.
Damn he was cute and despite the fact that he wanted more info
I could see that he had a hardon. I ran my hand over it and
gave it a little squeeze.
“No. Don’t do that.” He pushed my hand off of his crotch but
didn’t move it any further away than the top of his thigh. He kept glancing
down at it as I was making little circles with the tip of my finger.
How,” he said, “did you know that I was gay? Do I have like a fucking
sign on my forehead?” He put his hand over mine to stop the circling. “If
you keep that up I’m gonna shoot in my jock. My god! How many hands do
you have?” He scooted away from me a bit.
Geez, David I didn’t mean to come on this strong. Actually, I’ve
never had any gay contact with anyone, unless you count jacking off with internet
cam guys.” He was staring at me and his black hair had fallen down over
his forehead and he had the longest fucking eyelashes and then there were those
green eyes. I rolled over onto my back so that I didn’t have to look
into those eyes or I’d never get this said. “I don’t have
a clue David. When I fished you out of the stream and was carrying you to the
shore and you were squirming around in my arms and you had this wild look in
your eyes. Do you realize how beautiful your eyes are? Anyway something happened,
I guess I just fell in love with you.” He was still staring at me but
his eyes had softened. “Up until now I never believed in love at first
sight but that’s what happened.” I rolled over and looked at him. “At
least I think that’s what happened, fuck I don’t know.” I
reached out and touched his knee. “Like I said I’m really new to
this but I knew that I couldn’t pass up the chance. For some reason,
suddenly, you just meant too much to me.” I gave him my biggest smile. “Look,
I know it’s stupid but you did say you’re gay so I at least I wasn’t
hitting on a straight guy. And besides, you kissed me back.” He smiled,
He came over and knelt down next to me. “Mark, it’s just that you
took me by storm. I mean I did think for a while there that I was going to
drown and then this big hunk of a guy picks me up like nothing and carries
me to the shore and starts kissing me.” He looked up at the sky and laughed. “By
the way for a guy with no experience you do that pretty well. And well, the
reason that I kept tripping over myself is because I do that almost every time
I’m around a hot guy.” He ducked his head and was looking at me
sheepishly. “I am a klutz. At least I am when I’m around guys like
I sat up and looked directly into those eyes. “You mean you like the
way I look? I mean, you could be attracted to me?”
Mark,” he said, “have you ever looked in a mirror?”
I felt really embarrassed and I’m sure that I was blushing. “Well,” I
said, “I mean I know that I’m not ugly or anything, but nothing
like you.” I reached out and touched the side of his face. He didn’t
flinch. “You’re gorgeous.” I said quietly. He had the most
beautiful mouth and he parted his lips slightly. I put my hand behind his neck
and pulled him in for a kiss. Then we were just touching foreheads. “David,
you have to tell me what to do.” I said. “I only want to make you
happy but, well, just tell me what you need.”
You never had sex with a man?” He asked.
No,” I said, “I mean I’m not a virgin. I’ve been with
women.” He looked at me oddly.
Obviously,” I said, “that didn’t work out.” Then I
started kissing him again.
Well,” he said, “in a way it’s basically the same thing.” He
pulled his tee shirt up over his head and let it drop to the blanket. He seemed
to hesitate a moment and then stood up and pulled off his shorts and jock in
one movement. Then he just stood there.
I leaned back on my elbows. “David please come here.”
He walked over and sat down straddling my lap facing me, his dick standing
almost straight up. His hands were holding very tight to my shoulders like
he was nervous or afraid. Then he just started to cry. No warning, nothing
just sobbing. My heart felt like it was turning over in my chest and I pulled
him tight to my chest.
“Oh David, don’t cry, oh, god, please don’t
cry. We don’t have to do anything. Just please David
don’t cry.” I was overwhelmed with a desire to
protect this man. I stroked his hair and said. “Why David,
is it something I said, or did?” He shook his head no
but he was still crying. “I don’t fucking know
why I’m crying Mark.” His head was tucked under
my chin. “But it’s not because you did anything.” I
was rocking him gently. “It’s just, well, I’ve
waited so long and then there you were and it was like a fucking
dream come true and then I was crying and shit I’m just
I was gently holding his head against my chest with my hand. “This
is not exactly the best place on the planet to be gay,” he
said, “in case you hadn’t noticed.” He was
sniffling now but the great wave of emotion had passed. “I
wouldn’t be here myself if my grandfather hadn’t
left me the land and the money to build a house on it. But
the only gay activity is at the rest area up on the interstate
highway and the cops watch it like a hawk and try to entrap
guys, so I don’t go there.” He was pressed as tightly
to my body as he could get and he felt frightened to me, not
just nervous but frightened of something, something more than
meeting another gay guy.
David,” I said, “I want to make love to you. Or
rather I want us to make love together, but I don’t want
to take advantage of you. I don’t want to catch you at
some emotional low point just so I can just get my rocks off.” I
was still holding his head and slowly rubbing his back. I couldn’t
feel his hardon anymore pressing into my stomach so I guess
he had gone soft, but he was basically sitting on my dick and
there was absolutely no chance that it was going soft with
him sitting on it.
Mark I wouldn’t let you take advantage of me.” He
had pulled a way from my chest and was looking directly into
my eyes. He smiled. “I’m sitting naked on your
lap of my own free will and because I’m horny as a toad.” He
looked very serious. “God, tell me you’re not a
bottom cause if I don’t get fucked soon I’m going
to lose my mind.”
I laughed because it was funny and also I was relieved that
basically we both wanted the same thing, sexually.
No David, I’m not a bottom and horny as a toad is just
the condition that I was hoping you’d be in. Has it been
a long time, I mean, since your last fuck?”
I was kissing the side of his neck and licking his chin. “Oh god I love
it when you do that.” He said.
His body was almost vibrating. “Yeah, its’ been quite a while,
two years maybe but I’ve got a small dildo at home that I can use to
keep from totally losing my mind. Geez, I’ve known you for two hours
and already I’ve told you about my dildo. Honest Mark I’m not some
wanton slut or anything. I mean I don’t want you to think that I’ve
fucked half the planet. I’ve only had sex with maybe five guys in my
whole life and only the last two fucked me, but I realize from my experience
with them that it’s what I like.” For the last couple of minutes
he was clenching and unclenching his ass around my dick. “Actually”,
he said, “like” is the wrong word. Although I do “like” it,
I really do “need” it.”
I don’t suppose you have any condoms with you.” I asked.
Oh, but I do.” He smiled. “Now don’t you move, I don’t
want you running off or anything.”
He got up and went over to a small leather case laying next to his tackle box.
It was the kind of case that was actually issued by the Army for the guys to
hold toiletries in and obviously he used it for the same thing. He was holding
up a tube that I took to be lube and some rubbers. “If my butt isn’t
lying to me we’re gonna need the large.” I had pulled off my shirt
and was slipping off my shorts and jock. “You could,” I said, “confirm
those measurements with your mouth.” God my dick loved being free of
that jock. It rolled over to the side and then stood up and pointed straight
at the sky. He was standing by his tackle box stark naked with his hip cocked
to one side. His dick was hard and pointing straight up and it looked to be
about 6 or 7 inches and was pretty. It was wide at the base and stayed wide
until just below the head where it turned to a blunt point. He started moving
back toward me. He moved with a very fluid motion. I noticed that his chest,
abs and butt were pretty well defined and concluded that he must at least exercise
regularly to stay as defined as he was. He had a pretty good suntan and with
his black hair his green eyes were even more striking. After thinking about
it I decided that emeralds were a pretty good analogy. He moved like a dancer
or a racehorse in that there was a prance to his step that drew attention to
his ass. He had the most beautiful ass I had ever seen, and in the Army I had
seen plenty. The Army Rangers are some of the most physically fit guys on the
planet, well, along with the Navy SEALS, and I figured my point of reference
regarding butts was as good as anyone’s. I also notice a few old scars
on his back and sides and I figured he at some time in his life had been in
an accident. I knew about scars.
When he got back to me he laid down next to me facing my feet so that we’d
be in a position to sixty-nine. I started to stroke his legs slowly. I didn’t
want him to think that I was only interested in a quick fuck, because I wasn’t.
I don’t know if it really was love at first sight, but what I was feeling
for David was very real and very strong and I wanted to signal with my actions
that I wanted this to be more than just sex. I also knew from what he had told
me that he needed sex and soon. I was taking him at his word but I wanted him
to set the pace without goading from me. Then I started thinking that the whole
love thing I was laying on him might freak him out as being too much too soon.
So, I decided that I was going to cool the love talk and let him set the pace
on sex at least for the time being.
I was rubbing my hands lightly up and down his leg moving closer to his balls
but also running the tips of my fingers through the crack of his butt. He really
seemed to like that, but I guessed you would if you needed to be fucked. At
the same time he had grabbed my dick and was trying to cram as much of it into
his mouth as he could. His left hand was around my dick and his right hand
was playing with my balls.
I reached his balls with my right hand and started to go for his dick with
my left but he said. “No please! If you touch that I’ll shoot!
Believe me it’s all I can do to stop it now.” He looked at me kind
of plaintively and said. “I’m sorry, I don’t usually have
this much of a hair trigger but its been a long time and well…you really
turn me on.”
By now he was rolling the rubber down my cock and it felt really good as the
tight band of latex was rolled down my cock. I was leaking a lot of precum
so there was no need to add lube inside of the condom. When he had that done
he stood and straddled my waist and started to lower himself onto my cock,
putting his hands on my chest for balance. I held my cock in what seemed to
be the appropriate angle and soon the head of my cock touched his asshole.
David just made a little sound somewhere between a grunt and a whimper. He
stayed like that for about twenty seconds and then I could feel the pressure
of his asshole on the end of my dick as he tried to get it to penetrate his
ass ring. I felt the pop as it went in to him. David’s eyes had been
closed and his lips clenched shut but at that he opened his eyes wide and his
mouth grimaced. He was beginning to sweat and had a light sheen over his chest
and upper arms. He said, “Oh, Oh, Oh my god.” Then he made that
little noise again that eventually I would come to consider the David sound.
His butt was sinking steadily down onto my cock and while it wasn’t enough
to make me shoot I could have gotten off easily just by thinking more about
what was actually happening. I was trying to concentrate on David and making
sure that he wasn’t hurting himself. The precum was running off the tip
of his dick in a steady stream and was making a puddle in my navel. I could
feel his butt settling down onto my balls and upper thighs and I reached forward
and started rubbing my thumbs lightly over his nipples.
Will this be too much for you David?” I asked. I didn’t want my
touching his nipples to end his fun. The only response I got was, “Anngghh”,
which I took to mean no it was okay. I knew better than to touch his cock but
really wanted to do more than rub his nipples so I began to run my hands along
his thighs and his upper arms. David was just beginning to raise himself an
inch or two and then lower himself again but soon he had a short stroke rhythm
going and he said. “Oh wow, this is really great. I didn’t think
that I’d be able to take it all but I did. Man that is one great cock
you’ve got! I feel like the head is somewhere up around my liver.”
I said, “Babe you look really hot, riding my cock. I think maybe that’s
where my dick is meant to be.”
Oh yeah,” he said, “Oh yeah” But I took that to be an indication
of the physical sensation of finally having a dick up his butt again rather
than any relationship comment.
He whipped his head from side to side to throw off the sweat that was getting
in his eyes and he steadily increased the depth of stroke he was taking. Soon
he was lifting himself up about six inches and slowly dropping himself down.
After a couple minutes of this I started moving my hips up to meet his dropping
butt and the first time I did it his head flew back and he made the David sound
again. Generally he was making a very steady “unnhh unnhh” sound
over and over again, only if I pumped my hips up too hard would he make the
David sound. Somehow when you’re watching a guy doing this, and he’s
this deeply into it, it seems like you’re seeing something very unveiled
about him. I felt like I was looking into David’s soul or at least some
part of it. So far, everything that I saw only made me want him more and not
just in a sexual way, although that was a big part of it. I started thinking
about how my dick was actually penetrating David’s body and how we were
being bound together by this physical act of fucking. Thinking like that seemed
to trigger the beginning stages of my orgasm and I told David. “Man I’m
He looked down at me. “Whenever you start cumming just grab my dick and
He smiled at me. When I felt my orgasm beginning to explode in his butt I sat
up straight, grabbed his dick and shoved my tongue into his mouth all at the
same time. He was screaming the David sound into my mouth and I felt his cum
hitting the bottom of my chin.
I was holding myself upright and holding onto David with my abs doing most
of the work and pretty soon they needed relief. I laid back down pulling David
with me so that his chest was resting on mine with my still stiff dick lodged
in his ass. David was sweating heavily and it was mingling with the load of
cum he had shot between us. His body was jerking every few seconds with aftershocks
of his orgasm, I was kissing the top of his sweaty head, my left hand held
the back of his neck and my right was slowly rubbing his back. I wanted him
to know that this was not just a quick fuck thing for me and the next few minutes
were critical to establishing that and I was trying to gentle him with my stroking
and keep him calm.
You were wonderful.” I said softly to him. “I’m glad my first
time was with you.”
Do you mind holding me?” He was talking quietly into my chest. “This
feels good…except your cock is about to slip out of my butt.”
I laughed. “Well it’s a little tired now but you can have it back
after it’s rested. I think that it really liked your butt.”
He giggled and looked up at me. “Am I too heavy for you? I can get off.”
I pulled his head back down to my chest. “No you’re good, I like
the way you feel there.”
He sighed and kind of settled in on top of me. “I’m sorry you had
to wait so long for your next fuck.” I said. “As cute as you are
I wouldn’t have thought you’d have to do anything more than answer
I was lightly stroking the side of his head, running the tips of my fingers
through his hair from just in front of his ear down to the nape of his neck. “If
this bothers you I’ll stop.”
Hmm, no it feels good, it relaxes me.” His voice sounded like he was
on the verge of sleep.”
If you want to sleep baby go ahead,” I said, “I’m fine.” I
don’t think he heard the last part of that sentence he was out like a
light. I laid there with him asleep on my chest happy that he trusted me enough
to do that. It made breathing a lot more difficult but it was worth it. I just
kept lightly stroking his hair. It felt like we were glued together as the
load of cum between us began to dry.
After about 30 minutes I couldn’t take the weight on my chest anymore
and gently rolled him off of me onto the blanket. He barely stirred. I lay
next to him watching his face.
The fuck had been unbelievable, way more than I ever expected. If I ever had
any doubts about being gay, I didn’t anymore. I was gay and I wanted
this man. Period.
I continued stroking his hair and watching his face, angelic in sleep. He moved
his lips from time to time but continued to sleep. I didn’t care, I was
enjoying just being next to him and besides, while he was asleep he couldn’t
run off. I didn’t know what I was going to do if all he wanted was that
fuck because I wanted so much more, but I also knew that it was unreasonable
to expect him to fall for me as quickly as I had fallen for him. So the only
thing that I knew was that I had this moment and I watched him breath and studied
the dark stubble on his chin. He had fairly large nipples and I really wanted
to lick them but I was afraid that it would wake him. His dick was soft and
nestled in his black pubic hair, his balls lying between his legs.
I had to pee, bad, and I got up and walked a short distance into the woods
and peed against a tree. As I was walking back to the blanket I saw David beginning
to toss his head from side to side, so I hurried back and laid next to him.
He was having some kind of a dream and it obviously wasn’t a happy one
and he seemed to be trying to get away from someone in the dream. I hoped it
wasn’t me. I decided to try stroking his hair again but it didn’t
have any effect and eventually his eyes just snapped open. He had a really
startled look on his face and he seemed disoriented.
Oh wow! Weird dream! Sorry about that.” He sat up and was obviously embarrassed
about the dream. I told him that it was okay and that I liked watching him
sleep. He said he was surprised that he had fallen asleep but that when I started
to stroke his hair it just kind of made him relaxed and tired. That didn’t
seem too unusual to me because I felt the same way every time I went to the
barber. As soon as a barber starts cutting my hair it’s all I can do
to stay awake.
David and I spent the next few hours talking. He filled me in on his early
life and I did the same on mine. David had been raised in a small town about
twenty miles away and things had gone okay until high school and some guys
figured out that he was gay. Then his life became a total nightmare. When it
came time for his junior year he was able to talk his parents into letting
him stay with his grand parents and go to school in the school district that
the house he owned now was in. He was very careful from then on and didn’t
let anyone know about him being gay. When he went off to the state university
he majored in business and came back to this same town and got a job in the
local bank where he now worked. When his grandfather died he left David ten
acres of land that bordered on this stream and enough money to build a pretty
large A-frame style house.
The path that led from my house down to the stream continued on to David’s.
His house was about three hundred yards further on down the path. David and
I walked there holding hands. It felt great. I was a little surprised at David’s
house. The immediate area that the house was on was surrounded by an eight
foot high chain link fence. The path stopped at a locked gate in the fence.
David took a key out of his shorts and let us in and we walked up to the house.
I asked him about the fence and he just said that living this far out in the
middle of nowhere you couldn’t be too careful. We laid on lounges on
his deck and kissed and held each other. I think he was beginning to understand
that I was in this for more than the sex. Anyway we ended up with him napping
while he half laid on me and I held him. At about four o’clock I told
him that I had to go home and make some business calls and I also invited him
for dinner that night at my house. We parted with a deep kiss and he promised
to be over by six o’clock.
I’m a manufacturer’s rep, which is to say, a salesman. However,
since what I sell is high tech electronic gear, and because I do some of the
servicing of what I sell, it doesn’t really feel like selling. The companies
that buy from the company where I work really don’t have many other places
to get this shit, so not much selling is required. I do however have to check
in a couple of time a day to see if anybody out there needs my help. The big
advantage to all of this is that I pretty much set my own hours, and my office
is at home. So, when I got home I covered those bases for an hour or so and
then set out to make dinner and get cleaned up.
I figured that something like pot roast with potato’s and green beans
was a safe bet and one that I could handle. I did the prep work on that including
browning the meat. Finally I threw the meat into a pressure cooker that my
mom had given me and taught me how to use, and then took a shower. Two thirds
of the way through the cooking time for the meat I cooled it down, tossed the
vegetables in, and set it to cooking again. I was going to get David to help
me make the salad.
David showed up about ten minutes early looking incredibly hot in tan cargo
shorts and a black polo type shirt.
Wow, babe you look hot.” I said “May I kiss you?” I didn’t
want to take too much for granted here and I figured that I should probably
begin with the polite approach.
David laughed as he put his arms around my neck. “You’ve already
I kissed the side of his neck and whispered. “I know but kissing is more
intimate. If I absolutely had to and I do mean absolutely, I could maybe give
up fucking but I could never give up kissing.” I had been kissing my
way around his face and then moved in for a long leisurely deep kiss. I slid
my tongue into his mouth and he began to try and suck it out of my body. In
the mean time my hands had found his ass and I was kneading his ass cheeks.
I lifted him up and he wrapped his legs around my waist and strengthened his
grip around my neck. I carried him over to the sofa and laid him down lengthwise
on it and I lay down on top of him, with my knees and elbows carrying my weight.
You’re not one of those perverts who’s going to make me suck his
dick so that he can put pictures of me on the internet are you.” He sounded
serious but I wasn’t sure.
David! You’re kidding right? I wouldn’t do something like that.”
Oh shit,” he said, “well I hope you’re planning on taking
advantage of me in some way. Otherwise it won’t have been worth the walk.”
We both laughed and I put both of my arms under his back with my hands cradling
his head and drew him up for more kissing. “Oh man,” I said, “you
are soooo getting to me.” I kissed his eyes, his nose and then that beautiful
mouth. David, who earlier was a bit tentative, was now totally into this. I
think he was beginning to understand that I was seriously interested in him.
His body felt so good under me, so completely David, which is to say very sexual,
very responsive and so, well, so David. He is a kind gentle man and this, combined
with his aura of sexuality, created my idea of him. In my mind, then and now,
David is the perfect mate, a mixture of all that I wanted in a man, wrapped
up in a very handsome exterior. It was all I could do to force my attention
back to dinner, because if we didn’t eat now god knew when we would have
because I planned to fuck him for hours, if he would let me.
We had a totally pleasant dinner. I opened a bottle of Cabernet to go with
the pot roast and we both got nicely buzzed. Afterwards we sat on the sofa
leaning into each other and holding hands. David wanted to know everything
having to do with the Army and especially the Rangers. I filled him in on it
from the time I went in until I got out and answered about ten million questions.
I learned that while David’s dad was still alive David didn’t have
an awful lot to do with him and that his Grandfather had been his favorite
relative. Apparently the problems he had had in high school had caused a rift
between he and his dad and that had never healed. And on the other hand his
grandfather had provided him the safety of living with him at a time when David
was really frightened about the whole thing. Obviously his grandfather’s
death had been devastating to him and had taken away his primary security blanket.
As he was telling me this, he was absentmindedly twisting my fingers and I
knew that there had to be a lot more to this story than I was being told, but
I thought, “What the hell, I’m trying to put my best foot forward
too.” I knew that my boy was still deeply troubled by something, but
I wasn’t going to force the story out of him before he was ready to tell
As the evening went on we were lying down on the sofa facing each other with
our legs intertwined and my arms around David, our crotches were pressed together.
We continued to talk about our lives, our jobs, and all the little things people
talk about at times like that. Our faces kept getting closer and closer until
we were virtually breathing the same air and the talking had turned to whispers
Finally, and almost simultaneously, we got up and headed into my bedroom. We
were kissing and neither one of us wanted to break the kiss, so we undressed
each other like Siamese twins. David climbed up onto the bed backwards with
his hardon swaying back and forth. I followed him on my hands and knees, crawling
between his legs. When he reached the head of the bed I lowered my body to
his and we continued to kiss. We were both leaking a great deal of precum and
our crotches were soaked with the slippery liquid. I was slowly rubbing our
cock’s together using precum for the great lubricant it is. David kept
tightening and relaxing his legs and I began licking his nipples, using as
much pressure as my tongue could provide. Since I was rubbing our cocks together
just with a thrusting motion of my hips, it left my hands free to stroke David’s
hair and shoulders. He kept making this little “unh” sound. I put
my face alongside of his and began circling the edges of his left ear with
my tongue slowly moving in and steadily breathing into his ear. He was beginning
to squirm and his knees seemed to be moving apart and lifting up a bit. I moved
my left hand down to his crotch but totally avoided his cock because I knew
from the morning that he could have a hair trigger. I played very gently with
his balls, which are hairless and really big, rolling them carefully in my
hand. His legs were spreading even wider apart and he was getting this intense “fuck
me” look on his face. I kissed him very deeply and asked him to roll
over onto his stomach. While he was turning over my hands never stopped touching
him and I moved down between his legs and began kissing that incredible ass
of his, massaging it with my hands and licking it, kissing it and also taking
delicate nips of it with my teeth. David was beginning to make very low pitched
versions of the David sound, and was pushing his butt back towards me. I spread
his cheeks apart and began licking my way towards the center. His asshole was
flexing constantly as I was doing this, but began to relax as I began concentrating
on the very center. I licked and blew air on it for a couple of minutes and
then tried pulling his dick back between his legs but he was incredibly hard
and I could only get it to point straight down and then I began licking, starting
from as close to the head of his dick as I could get, all the way up to his
asshole in one long stroke. The David sound was getting higher pitched. Since
I didn’t want him cumming yet, I let go of his cock and just kept circling
his asshole with my finger.
David said. “Oh fuck Mark, man just do it! You’re fucking killing
I didn’t answer him but began licking the back of his leg from where
the knee bends, up and then over to his perineum.
Please Mark, please man fuck me! Man I need that cock now!”
Okay babe, lay down on your stomach.” He stretched out arching his back
I ran my hands down his back and onto his butt. I reached for the lube and
started packing some into his ass. Then I rolled a condom over my dick and
pressed it firmly to his asshole but didn’t try to push it in. He kept
laying his head down and then lifting it and turning it to see what I was doing.
He started lifting just his butt off the bed by an inch or two.
I was straddling his hips and very slowly began applying pressure to his asshole
with my cock. It took a few moments but I finally popped through his ass ring
then I stopped for a moment so that his body could adjust to my dick. Finally
I began a very slow smooth inward stroke that lasted until my balls were tight
against his perineum. David was moving his head from side to side with his
mouth open but no sound was coming out. I carefully lowered my body until I
was totally covering him but still being careful to carry most of my weight
on my arms and knees. I was able to hold David’s head in both of my hands
and I started to lick him and bite very gently wherever I could reach.
David is this okay? Is this feeling good to you?” I whispered.
Mmmm yeah, yeah it is. You feel so good in me.” He started suck on my
You feel really good to me too. I love being in you, so hot, so tight.” I
was fucking David slowly with some long strokes and some short ones. I was
trying for the moment to avoid directly hitting his prostate. I didn’t
want him shooting too soon.
We fucked like that for thirty minutes or so and then I pulled out of David
and he turned onto his back and put his ankles on my shoulders. I entered him
again in one slow steady plunge until my balls were pressed tight against his
ass. I was watching his face as my cock moved into him. He’s so beautiful,
the way he moves his mouth as my cock goes into him, the sweat that has started
to plaster his black hair down and the look of being consumed with being fucked.
He’s making little sounds, little David sounds, and I push his knees
to his chest so that I can kiss him. Now my tongue is in his mouth and we’re
breathing hard into each other and the kiss is hard to hold because of the
movement of fucking. While I’m kissing him I’m wiping the sweat
off of his face and looking into his eyes. I’m pretty sure that I see
love in his eyes and certainly lust and I want to see trust there too because
I really want David to trust me, to know that I would never hurt him. I love
this guy so fucking much but I know that it’s going to take longer for
him to feel the same way that I do. I mean I’m pretty sure that he’s
beginning to love me but I’m also pretty sure this guy’s been hurt
somehow by someone but I can’t think of that now it’ll make me
I move David’s body a bit and redirect my cock so that it starts moving
across his prostate and the change is immediate.
“Oh fuck! Oh fuck yeah!”
He’s lifting his chin moving his head back and forth and, while before
he was stroking his cock, he’s now beating it. Somehow in some part of
my mind I know that I’ll cum when he does, that I won’t be able
to stop it. David’s excitement is transmitted to me instantly and I can
feel the beginning of my orgasm building. I’m slamming into him now.
We’re both sweating and our bodies are covered with a combination of
sweat, lube and precum.
David’s first shot clears his head and hits the sheet behind it, the
second hits his chin and the rest begin coating his chest and stomach. The
David sound has become a yell as I start pumping my cum into the condom in
his ass, his legs are alternately gripping and relaxing against my shoulders.
I’m yelling, “Oh fuck David! Oh fuck man! Man I’m shooting
in your ass!” I can hear and feel my balls slapping against David’s
Finally I lower David’s legs down on either side of me and I lay on his
chest and I can feel the huge load of his cum spreading out between our bodies.
Again I try to support most of my weight on my knees and elbows while I hold
his head in my hands as I kiss him. We’re both lacking oxygen and we
stop kissing and I lay my head next to his. I can feel his breath in my ear
and I’m sure he can feel and hear mine. My cock is slowly coming out
of his ass and then drops to the sheet.
I want this to be the way my life will be. I want this man in my arms forever,
to feel and hear his breath next to my head, to feel his heart beating strongly.
I turn my head and kiss his cheek. I feel him turning his head and then I turn
and kiss his lips.
Wow.” David says.
I kiss him again. “Wow back at you,” I reply.
I lift myself up and roll off to the side, pulling the condom off as I turn
so that I can drop it in the trash can on the side of the bed. I grab a towel
and wipe off my dick and then start to clean up David. When I get all of the
cum wiped up I lay next to David on my side and pull him onto his side so that
we can kiss, my right arm is wrapped around him and our legs are entwined.
I look into his eyes and ask softly, “Is that what you needed it to be
David. I mean did I do it the way that you want?” I’m running the
tips of my fingers through his hair and looking into his eyes.
David kissed my eyes and then my mouth very slowly. “It was perfect.” He
whispered and then in a laughing voice. “So why don’t we do it
again?” He laughed.
Yeah right! That’ll happen! It will take me a couple of days to build
that back up.” I was teasing him and he knew it.
David pushed me on my back and straddled my chest. “Fucking days! Man
I need this at least twice more tonight!” He had entwined his fingers
with mine and was holding my hands down on the bed. He was laughing and playful.
Well,” I said, “if you’re a really good boy I have a feeling
you might get a repeat performance in the morning.” I pulled my hands
free and pulled David down so that he’s flat on top of me while I kissed
him deeply. He snuggled down with his head on my chest and I began lightly
running my fingertips through his hair.
“I promise. I’ll be good.”
His voice was getting heavy with his need for sleep and, as before, the stroking
was putting him under. When he finally dropped off I waited a while and then,
very gently, rolled him off me and onto his side. I spooned him from behind
and rested his head on my upper arm, and continued to lightly stroke him with
my other hand. I pulled the sheet up over us and laid there, listening to David’s
heart beat, and was soon asleep myself.
Sometime during the night I remember David sitting bolt upright in the bed.
He started talking and then lay back down. Then, it was like he realized he
wasn’t next to me anymore and he moved back against me. It had felt so
cold when he moved away and when he came back to me I wrapped my arms around
him again and pulled him close. He made some little sounds and then was asleep
I woke just as it was getting light and saw that David was curled on his side
on the other side of the bed with his back to me. I got carefully out of bed
and walked naked into the kitchen to start the coffee and then to the bathroom
to piss. Returning to the bedroom I got slowly back into bed and and moved
into position behind David, wrapping him in my arms. He wiggled a little but
never really woke up. I was staring at the back of his ear and the side of
his face. His hair was very black and the stubble of his beard very evident.
I looked down his body at the way his butt looked pressed against my crotch.
David is a lot smaller than me and I can kind of envelope him with my body
and he just feels so fucking good in my arms. His body is perfectly proportioned,
his hands and feet are so beautiful and he’s so handsome. There is a
delicate quality to him that is hard to describe, it’s not that he’s
effeminate, because he’s not, but he’s got like a 30 inch waist,
for Christ sake, he’s almost petite. When I’m holding David like
this something is triggered in my brain, some very basic need to protect, and
I could hold him like this forever. While he’s in my arms like this before
he’s awake and started his day, he’s all mine and I know that he’s
safe. I can feel him breathing and feel his heart beating and I can smooth
his hair with my hand and touch his lips and he’s just all mine, this
wonderful gift that there’s no way that I deserve.
David’s been making little sounds for the last few minutes and he’s
beginning to move, he’s been clenching and unclenching his butt and since
my dick was laying in his butt I’m now rock hard. He reaches to his hip
and takes my hand and pulls it to his chest and at the same time he’s
rhythmically shoving his butt back against me. I kiss his shoulder and then
nuzzle the back of his head. He smells so great. His hardon is sticking out
from his crotch and I move my hand down and wrap it around his dick. This causes
a sound somewhere between a gasp and a moan to come from him.
David,” I whisper, “are you awake?”
Mmm, yeah kinda.” He mumbles and shoves his butt back against my cock
again. “You must be glad to see me.” He kinda laughs in a sleepy
way not totally awake.
Do you want me to bring you coffee?” Again I whisper into the hair on
the back of his head.
Unnh uh. Don’t leave me.” He pulls my hip tighter to his butt while
thrusting his dick into my hand.
I won’t go David. Go back to sleep.”
Need you Mark. Mmmm. Need you in me.” Still shoving his butt back against
David is a horny little fucker.” I mumble into the nape of David’s
It’s your fault. You seduced me. I was a good boy till you showed me
your dick.” He giggles into my arm.
He reaches between us and take my cock in his hand. “What the hell is
this thing against my butt? Feels like telephone pole.” He starts slowly
jerking my cock.
Now I’m shoving my dick up and down the crack of his butt. I reach over
David to the nightstand and grab a condom and lube. David sees this and starts
making little go for it sounds. I tear the package with my teeth and roll a
condom down my cock and then start applying lube to David’s butt. His
asshole is a little swollen and I’m very gentle with the lube, making
circles around the center slowly before moving at first one finger and then
two into him.
We’re still lying on our sides and I decide that this is probably the
best way to start a morning fuck and I place the head of my dick against his
asshole and just hold it there without applying any significant pressure. Looking
at my dick against his asshole almost has me cumming and I have to defocus
or I’ll never last. David begins pushing back against me and my dick
pops into him, sinking about three inches before I stop it. I want to give
him time to get used to my dick. He rolls his head back towards me and we kiss.
There is a look in his eyes that I’ve seen before, but never with this
intensity. We kiss again but longer now and with greater passion. I think we
both know that something has changed. I wrap my arms tightly around him and
start biting softly at the back of his neck and shoulders and at the same time
slowly sink the rest of my cock into his ass. His dick is sticking out as hard
as I’ve ever seen it but I know that I can’t touch it yet but I
start rubbing his stomach and chest. He’s making the David sound steadily
now and I’m pumping my cock very slowly in and out trying my best to
avoid his prostate.
Unnh, unnh, oh fuck yeah!” He’s saying softly, almost to himself.
Baby,” I say, “is this how you want it.”
Oh yeah! Fuck me babe, fuck me hard.” He starts pushing back against
me hard and I know this can’t last.
Tell me when David.” It’s almost a gasp. We’re both breathing
David’s beginning to stretch his legs out and tighten his muscles and
I know he’s close. Then he starts yelling the David sound and I let go
and let my orgasm happen just as he’s shooting. I’m a few seconds
behind him and as he’s finishing I begin to fill the condom in his ass.
David and I are both gasping for air. I have both of my hands on his shoulders
and he still has his hand on his dick. I look over his shoulder and see the
trail of his cum running from his dick to the headboard of the bed. Geez this
guy shoots! We lay there for a few minutes gathering our strength and eventually
my cock plops out of his ass.
Mark?” He sounds concerned.
Yeah babe?” What’s the matter?
Is it clean?”
What do you mean?” Oh! I start to laugh.
Yeah David it’s clean.” I get up and turn him on his back while
I straddle his hips. I pull the condom off my cock and toss it in the waste
basket. “But David, if we keep doing this and I sure as hell hope we
do, the time will come when it won’t be, but you need to know that I
don’t give a fuck. There are a lot of things in this world that bother
me but a little shit isn’t one of them. Besides, I’d rather have
your shit on my dick than Tom Cruise’s mouth.” I grin at him and
he looks a little embarrassed but he smiles back. I lean down and shove my
tongue in his mouth kissing him passionately. And even though we both have
dog breath that doesn’t fucking bother me either.
I look at David intently. “David there’s isn’t one thing
that bothers me about you.”
I gently kiss him again. ”Let’s get some breakfast babe.” I
take his hand and pull him out of bed and he comes, gracefully, his beautiful
body moving like a dancer.
David stands naked by the stove putting bacon in a pan while I pour coffee.
I think, for the millionth time, that his must be the prettiest ass on the
planet. I walk over to him and hand him his coffee, then I get him an apron,
which I put over his head and tie in back. I can’t help myself. I run
my hands over his ass.
Careful back there, you don’t want to be starting something you don’t
have time to finish.”
I wrap my arms around his chest and kiss the back of his neck and his ear.
Com’on now you’ll give me a hardon and I’m too close to the
stove! You might lose your favorite new toy.”
I nestle my cock in the crack of his ass. “Actually it might be my second
favorite new toy.” He giggles. “Well stud your first favorite new
toy needs a little recovery time. Feels like somebody drove a Mack truck up
there.” He smiled at me. “But I wouldn’t mind if it happened
again in say maybe an hour or so.”
We spent the rest of the day fucking, sucking and showering, interrupted only
by hushed conversations. Lying naked on the bed totally entwined with each
other we whispered of our hopes and desires and of our love. This was definitely
the day that we both fell in love. It was a Sunday of change, a day that was
to bind us together and make us lovers. By the end of the day I don’t
think that either of us could imagine living without the other. We had dropped
many of the emotional walls that people erect to keep themselves safe from
possible hurt and we took chances that day and spoke of our mistakes and fears
and of our needs. David told me at least some of the horrible things that had
happened to him at his first high school. I knew that he was editing out the
worst parts but I understood the courage it took for him to tell me as much
as he did. I told him of some of the horrors that I had seen and been involved
in. It was a time for tears and consoling and trusting. David became mine that
Sunday and I became his.
Around five o’clock David dressed in his shorts and shirt and told me
he was going to run home and start dinner, we were planning on spending the
night at his house. I told him that I’d see him in an hour or so and
was going to do some laundry. He kissed me goodbye, his emerald eyes looking
up into mine a slight smile on his face his black hair in its usual tangle.
I reached out and pushed his hair off of his forehead letting my fingertips
run through it. He held my hand and kissed my palm. I bent and kissed him tasting
his warm mouth and feeling the dark stubble on his face as I held it and then
I left the house about six thirty and walked down the path through the woods
that led to the stream where David and I first met and then went on to his
house. I rang the bell at the back gate that was part of the cyclone fence
surrounding the property but there was no answer. That struck me as odd and
at first I couldn’t decide what I should do. I could be over the fence
in seconds but David might think that strange. In any event I decided to walk
around the fence to the front of the house. The fence enclosed all of the property
but was indented at the driveway leaving about one hundred feet of driveway
and the mailbox outside the fence.
I saw what looked like a large khaki and black bundle lying next to the driveway
and I guess some part of me knew exactly what it was because I started running
towards it. Oh fuck! Oh fuck! I’m running now through the brush and trees
surrounding the property I’m getting cut by branches but I don’t
feel them I’m just running and hearing my breathing in my ears and my
heart pounding and I’m thinking God don’t do this to me don’t
let it be David please God not David take me God but please don’t let
that be him.
And then I’m holding him in my arms and pressing my hand against the
stab wound and I’m calling cops on my cell phone and telling David that
it will be okay and please don’t die because he’s my whole world
and now I’m covered in his blood there’s so much blood and I can’t
stop it all I can’t stop it and I hear the sirens and then the cops are
there pointing guns and I give them David and they’re yelling at me but
they drive away with David and the sirens never stop and they grab me and cuff
me and then put me in the cop car and I can’t stop crying and why do
I have to watch so many people die and please not David God, please not David.
It’s was late that evening when the police released me. They’ve
checked me out six ways to Sunday and they had reluctantly come to believe
me. I understood their position. I was the logical suspect. Even I would have
arrested me. I fucking couldn’t stop crying at the police station and
I guess I weirded them out, I know that I weirded me out. I’ve seen friends
hurt and even killed before, close friends too, but when I saw David like that,
man that just really threw me. It was like I dropped into this other world.
The thought of losing that little fucker just tore my soul in half. It scared
me afterwards too. I mean, a few days ago I would have said that no one could
have that effect on me and now, I like belong to this other person and I don’t
have any control over the situation. No control, that’s scary. I walked
around before I went to the hospital. I mean I didn’t know if I could
handle this loss of control and the responsibility but in the end I knew that
there was no way that I could resist going to David. The man had made a fundamental
change in me, without him I would be always searching for the half of me that
would be missing.
At the hospital David was still unconscious but I was allowed to sit by his
bed in the ICU and hold his hand. The knife had penetrated the liver but the
surgeons had been able to repair it and they were trying to replace some of
the blood he had lost. I still hadn’t changed clothes but had cleaned
myself up as much as possible in the john. David’s face was bruised but
that was the only sign that anything had happened at least that was visible
above the covers. I talked quietly to him even though I knew he wouldn’t
be able to respond and maybe not even hear me. It felt so good to just be able
to hold his hand, it felt warm and, well, normal. He looked so peaceful and
I marveled again at how handsome he was, how perfect. I told him that I loved
him and I promised him that if he just got well I’d see to it that no
one ever hurt him again. It was a promise I meant.
It was never even a question of whether or not I would kill whoever did this
to David, it was only a question of time.
I must have fallen asleep with my head on David’s bed and near morning
he was waking up and the cops came in and hauled me out of there. I understood
that they wanted to talk to David before I got a chance to speak to him, but
leaving him was hard to do.
About ten o’clock that morning they let me back in to see David. I walked
over to him and took his face in my hands.
I’m so fucking sorry David, I’m so sorry.” The tears were
streaming down my face and I was on the verge of totally losing it again.
He pulled me down to kiss him. “Mark, please don’t fucking cry.
If you start then I’ll cry too. Let’s don’t go there.” He
looked at me and asked. “Why are you sorry? I mean I’ll be okay.
It’s okay Mark. Please don’t cry.” He was holding my hands
as I held his face.
I should have been there David. If I had been there this wouldn’t have
happened. I’m so sorry.”
Mark if you had been there it’s true it wouldn’t have happened,
not then, at least. But Mark, it would have still have happened, just not then.” He
was wiping away my tears with his thumbs. “God, I fucking love you. Mark
I need to tell you everything that happened that caused all this and a lot
of other things.”
I can’t tell you the guys name cause the cops made me promise not to.
You know, those assholes still want to think you did this. Well anyway, I went
to high school with this guy. Remember I told you that I went to two high schools
and how bad the first one was, well this guy was the reason. So anyway when
I was a freshman and just starting to understand that I was gay and how I was
gonna deal with that this guy found out that I was gay. Well I told him actually
but anyway he knew and I thought he was cool with it, I mean, he never said
anything bad, at least not at first. I mean I thought “Wow this is cool
my straight friend thinks it’s okay that I’m gay.” Well that’s
what I thought anyway.” I had been sitting on David’s bed watching
him talk and holding his hand. “Now Mark, this is the bad part and I
don’t want you to go ballistic.” He took both of my hands in his. “Remember
Mark that what I’m going to tell you is over, it’s done and can’t
David if you don’t fuckin tell me I will go ballistic.”
One day after PE class he raped me. I’m not going into the details because
they’re not important. But anyway after it was over he apologized to
me. He said he didn’t know what came over him and he was really sorry,
and I believed him. The weird thing is that the more I thought about it the
more I was able to excuse it because, at least the last part of it felt pretty
good. Oh don’t fuckin look at me like that, I was fourteen! Anyway I
guess that I convinced myself that I was in love with him. I know it’s
fucking stupid but that’s what happened. My mistake was in telling him
because he just went crazy. A couple of his friends had heard me and they started
making fun of him and it really got outta control. A few days later they caught
me after school. Well you saw the scars on my back. That’s where they
I was forcing my mind into a place where this might not hurt so bad. “What
did they do David?” Why the fuck did I need to hear this.
They beat me with chains. They beat me until apparently they thought that I
was dead. But, I survived and I thought that it was over. I mean, I thought
that after doing what they did and me not telling the cops who did it, I thought
that it would be over. But it wasn’t over even after I changed schools.
He would get drunk every month or two and come after me. I understand now what
was driving him and it’s pretty sad actually that it’s haunted
him for so long.”
I had to get moving. The cops would know the guys name and if I couldn’t
get it out of them there would have to be something in the paper from the time
it happened and if not that then someone who had been in school at that time
would have a name. That was all I needed, a name. I pulled my hands slowly
from David’s and began to back away. Thinking of it now I must have been
totally nuts to have even been thinking like that but then David does that
to me, still. I was almost to the door.
Hey!” David yelled and put a hand to his side in pain. “Revenge
Boy! Get your ass back here!” He was jabbing his finger at me. “You
are not to fucking touch him!” I just stared at him, not sure what he
really meant. “Get back here.” He was pointing at the bed. I walked
back and sat down. He took my hand. “Mark I know what you’re planning.” And
then with some exasperation. “Look, I fucking love you but I don’t
want to be sitting at work wondering if my boyfriend is out killing the waiter
from last night because we got bad service. I hate violence. I also know that
you feel the need to protect me. Mark, I can’t tell you how fucking good
that feels.” David looked at me with tears in his eyes. “But the
fucking way that you protect me best is to hold me in your arms and tell me
that I’m not alone anymore, that you’ll always be there for me.” He
looked up at me with tears streaming down his face. “Can you do that?”
Oh yes David, I can do that. Honest to god I can do that better than anyone