Protecting David 7
David was a little pissed at me. First of all because I was
picking him up at the airport and second because I was going
back to work tomorrow, all of this instead of resting. Well,
pissed is too strong of a word, he really never gets more
than annoyed with me. We hadn’t talked yet about the
German stock in my brokerage account because, well I guess
because, I was afraid to bring it up, especially on the phone
when I wouldn’t be able to see his face. It’s
stupid but I felt like I shouldn’t have looked in my
own account because that was like his job.
Anyway, when he came out of the airport lugging his stuff
he was just dressed in an old pair of blue jeans, you know
the tight kind that really show off your butt, and a blue dress
shirt. Geez he looked fantastic, his black hair going in all
directions. I popped the trunk and started to get out of the
car to help him but he waved me back in and just threw his
stuff in the trunk and jumped in the car. He was half kneeling
on the seat and he grabbed my face and kissed me hard and deep.
After a bit I heard someone blowing a horn behind us and I
looked in the rearview mirror and saw some guy mouth the word
faggot. So I just thought that I’d walk back there and
rip his heart out of his chest and shove it down his throat
but David intervened.
“No!” Leave him the fuck alone and drive!” He
has holding my right arm. “Please Mark! He’s not
“I won’t fucking touch him David!” I opened
the car door and got out and the guy in the Lincoln took off
in a flash, squealing his tires as he went. I got back in the
car and turned to David. “See?”
David was shaking his head and looking at his lap. “Please
just drive.” He said quietly.
I jumped on the freeway and ten minutes later we were pulling
up to our house. David hadn’t spoken since the airport
and I hadn’t either. David took his stuff into our bedroom
and dropped it off I was following him and then he walked into
the kitchen and I followed him. He was leaning against the
counter with Joe standing on his hind legs licking David’s
face and getting petted for his effort. I wished that I was
“All this anger is about that damn German stock isn’t
Well that took me totally off guard. “How did………
“I was afraid that you’d get bored and start looking
around.” He gently pushed Joe down. “I’m
sorry Mark. I should have told you how well it was doing but
then things got so busy.” He looked up at me and smiled. “But
ya know, it’s not like I cost you a quarter of a million.”
I walked, almost totally hobble free, over to David and took
him in my arms. “I was just surprised is all.” I
held his head to my chest. “I don’t give a fuck
about the money, I only give a fuck about you and about us.” I
bent down and kissed him. “And as far as the anger is
concerned, well that was because the guy at the airport was
an asshole.” I smiled at him. “But I say that without
Then I moved my head back from him a bit. “Okay so tell
me the story of the German stock.”
David’s arms were wrapped around me with his face against
my chest, we were leaning against the counter. “Not much
to tell really. Remember my friend Helmut?”
“Your friend from school? The guy that was married to
the American girl?”
“Yeah that guy, she died, but well, yeah that guy.” David
looked up at me and then pulled my head down for another kiss. “God
how I miss being near you, being able to touch you.” He
leaned his head against my chest again. “You smell so
fucking good.” Then he looked up at me. “So anyway,
Helmut is a financial consultant, the best and he mentions
that company to me a couple of years ago and says how great
the company is and still the stock price keeps falling and
maybe we should keep an eye on it. So it turns out that the
company that owned most of it was in trouble financially and
was starting to dump assets and Zander ended up being one of
them. Course when you’re selling stuff because you need
the money you never get what you should and because the market
was so shitty anyway we were able to get it really cheap.” He
looked up at me. “End of story.”
I took David’s hand. “Come on let’s get
the kinks outta you.” I pulled David by the hand to the
“That means we’re gonna fuck, right?”
“Well I thought we’d shower first.” I was
unbuttoning his shirt. “But yeah I really, really, need
to fuck you.” I gently put my right hand on one side
of his neck and ran my tongue up the other side.
“Oh that feels soooo fucking good.”
We both stripped off and got into the shower.
“Your bruising is almost all gone.”
“No, look at my leg, gravity pulls the bruising down.” I
turned so that David could see my right leg which was now totally
“That is so fucking weird! I had no idea bruises did
that.” The bruise had moved from my side and upper hip
down into my leg and foot.
“Yeah, but it doesn’t really hurt any more. Maybe
just a little stiffness.”
David wrapped his hand around my cock. “I may have found
the source of the stiffness.”
After showering David and I lay naked on our bed. I’m
on top of him and between his legs but supporting my weight
on my knees and elbows, I’m holding his face in both
of my hands and gently stroking his hair with by thumbs.
Our faces are only a fraction of an inch apart, my voice is
a whisper. “You still know how much I love you?”
David nods and his green eyes catch the light from the bedside
table and flash. “Yes, I do.” My cock is rock hard
and is very near David’s asshole.
I brush his black hair lightly off his forehead with my fingertips.
I look deep into his eyes. “You’re my whole life.” I
kiss David deeply and then run the kiss down beneath his ear
and he shivers. I whisper in his ear. “I’m gonna
fuck you now.”
I can feel David’s knees moving up my sides and he says. “Please!” His
hands are up around my neck and he’s hanging on. “I
need this sooo bad. I need your cock. I need you to be in me.”
I reach down and lube him, gently shoving a finger into him.
He says. “Oh yeah!”
“That feel good David? You like my fingers to be in
He gasps out the David sound and says. “Oh fuck yes.”
“You want my cock babe? You want my cock to be in you?”
“Oh yeah Mark! Fuck me babe!”
I position my cock at his asshole and press it in a little
less than an inch. Then I pull it out. I set up a rhythm of
penetrating him a little more each time and then withdrawing
but soon I have about four inches in his ass and then I just
slowly go for the bottom.
David’s legs are wrapped around me and he’s meeting
my thrusts with thrusts of his own trying to force in as much
of my dick as possible. His head is thrown back exposing his
throat and I begin to kiss and lick it and he starts making
a little unngh sound and his upward thrusts become stronger.
Even though David’s been taking nine inches of pretty
thick cock, I’ve been trying to avoid direct hits on
his prostate. I mean it can’t be avoided completely,
you’re almost always rubbing against it to some degree.
Then quickly I push David over onto his side and push his
left leg up so that it’s bent at the knee. Then I’m
able to basically ride the inside of his right leg while my
cock moves directly into his asshole. This position has the
added advantage of removing all control from David. Now I’m
completely in charge and I haven’t forgotten how he feels
about that and while it may be hard to believe, I’m concentrating
totally on giving David pleasure, but I’m also aware
that that pleasure isn’t only physical.
We’ve been fucking hard for about twenty minutes now
and there’s a light sheen of sweat over both of our bodies.
It’s getting harder and harder for me to keep my mind
defocused when my cock is in the most beautiful ass on the
planet and David is becoming more and more vocal.
I flip David over onto his back and push his knees to his
chest and hold them there with one hand while I jerk him off
with the other hand. My cock is scoring direct hits on his
prostate and he’s all but screaming. We cum within moments
of each other, mine going deep into his ass and his literally
spraying out onto his chest. David’s body is bucking
wildly, first with his orgasm and then with the aftershocks.
I push him over onto his side but leave my cock buried deep
in his ass. I spoon him from behind and rub his cum into his
chest. Both of our breathing is labored and we’re both
covered in sweat and cum and the smell of sex has saturated
I kiss the back of his sweaty neck. “You were wonderful.”
David and Frank were standing outside my office looking in.
Frank turns to David. “I suppose we better invite your
boyfriend to go to lunch with us. Whadya say Marky?”
“That mean you’re buyin Frank?”
“You got a fucking expense account, you buy.”
“Oh jeez! Okay, I’ll fuckin buy but no bitching
when I turn it in.”
David was leaning against the door. “As long as I don’t
have to buy I don’t care which one of you guys buys.”
I looked at Frank. “What are you in the mood for?”
Frank glanced at David. “Good news.”
David smiled. “Feed me.”
On the way down in the elevator I was able to palm David’s
ass, even though he shot me a dirty look and by the time we
reached the parking garage level I could tell he had a hardon.
When we finally got situated in the restaurant and had placed
our order Frank turned to David and said. “Okay, lay
it on me.”
Then Frank held up his hand. “Wait David before you
start that. I wanted to tell you that I don’t know what
you guys said to Chris and Jason when they stayed with you
but they think you guys walk on water. Thanks guys. I appreciate
David turned to Frank. “We really didn’t say much
of anything Frank. It may just be that seeing a couple of guys
living happily together is what they needed to see right now.”
“Well, whatever it was it had a profound affect. That
day, the day they took you to the airport, they talked to me
about their relationship and how they hope it will be like
yours.” Frank looked more genuinely touched than I had
ever seen him. “I can’t tell you how huge a step
that is for Chris to make, to come to me and actually talk
about it.” Then businessman Frank returned. “Okay
David, lay it on me.”
David settled in. “Well first of all the altitude gizmo
is according to my guys a very substantial improvement over
anything out there and I would advise you to buy it. Setting
up production in someplace other than where it is now is gonna
cost you a bundle. However if you buy the existing facilities
in the way that I suggest it will end up costing you nothing.
Not to mention the fact that all the guys that know how to
make all this work are already in place there.
“However for me the most interesting thing was this
companies capacity and understanding of the exotic metals.
Things like titanium, tantalum, niobium, beryllium, etc.. The
son, the guy who died was like a kid with a toy. He loved machines
and he especially loved new machines. Remember that he was
running this company for mom and dad and didn’t really
seem to give a shit if anything made economic sense. Mom and
Dad, who by the way are really delightful people, are really
only concerned that they have enough money to continue to live
as they do and support the dozen or so charities that have
become important to them.
What I’m suggesting is that you buy the whole company
and then spin off the altitude gizmo into a separate entity
but hang on to the metal business. In my opinion it’s
a gold mine. The family is gonna want, one way or another,
five hundred million for the whole thing. But Frank, the metal
business, by itself is worth a billion and a half and if your
board doesn’t want it I can sell it in any twenty four
hour period. But Frank the people buying it will be your competitors.” David
paused to take a breath.
Frank jumped in. “Okay suppose they say go ahead buy
the whole thing what kinda cash are we talking now, today.”
“Well that depends frank. The family wants all their
money at once. I tried to talk them outta that but they won’t
budge. So if you want to do that you need five hundred million,
you can borrow it or I can arrange investors.
“But Frank if it was me I would commit to the whole
thing, borrow a fast five hundred million, spin off the altitude
thing so that you totally own it and let me do a public offering
on the metal business. I can sell off fifty percent of that
for seven hundred and fifty million. And bingo, you’re
Frank turned to me. “You ever leave this little fucker
I’m marrying him myself.” Then. “Where the
fucks the food?”
David told me that he met Helmut Drueger when Helmut was an
exchange student at the University of Wisconsin at Madison.
Helmut wasn’t a regular member of their study group
but was attracted to David because David was and is so open
to different people and ideas. In any event they became friends
and when Helmut returned to Frankfurt David stayed in touch
with him as he did with all the other people he ran into.
In Helmut’s case that turned out to be profitable both
for Helmut and David. Helmut eventually became a financial
consultant and someone who generally had their fingers on
the pulse of the business community. So, when David started
his company Helmut was one of the first people he thought
of as a partner but a variety of conflicting interests made
that impossible except in the most informal way.
While Helmut was still a student here he married an American
girl and after five years of trying the had a baby boy, Alex,
and then tragically his wife was killed in one of the many
accidents on the autobahn. This left Helmut a single father
of a two year old but he told David that he hired a nurse and
that generally he was handling it.
And then out of the blue, more or less, David gets an email
from Helmut saying that he’s coming to the USA for an
extended visit and is in hopes of meeting with David.
Two weeks later, I wake up and hear David talking on the phone
in our bedroom.
“Okay Helmut. Your sure that I can’t pick you
up?” A pause. “You could stay here we have lots
of room.” Another pause. “A house? Helmut is everything
okay?” Another pause. “Okay Helmut. I’ll
see you then.” David hung up the phone and turned to
“He bought a house. Here. Something is wrong.”
Over the next two weeks David went into an orgy of communicating.
He was hunting for information and a determined David is something
else. The emails and telephone calls were nonstop, every friend,
every acquaintance, was questioned about Helmut, internet searches
of hospital databases were done by the best people in the business.
Everyone David knew who knew anyone in Germany was questioned
This was an extremely difficult time for David, Helmut was
one of his closest friends and as the information began pouring
in he became more and more depressed and then finally, on a
Thursday afternoon, Helmut arrived. David called me at work
and told me he was going to be spending the evening with Helmut
and that he’d get home as soon as he could.
About ten o’clock that evening I heard David come in
and saw the light go on in the kitchen. David was sitting at
the kitchen table.
“He’s dying.” David spoke softly. “I
can’t believe it.”
I knelt down next to David and wrapped my arms around him. “What’s
“Pancreatic cancer. Incurable.”
David looked up at me. “Let’s go into the living
room, we’ve got to talk. But I don’t know……………let’s
I helped David to his feet and we walked into the living room
and sat on the sofa. David was talking and almost crying. I
felt totally helpless, so I just held his hand.
“He’s known that he was going to die for a while.
That’s why he came here, to me, or rather to us.” David
brushed the tears out of his eyes. “I can’t remember,
did I ever tell you that Helmut has no relatives, other than
Alex, of course.
“Why to you babe? Why did he come to you?”
“He wants us to take Alex.” He looked at me with
an almost dazed look on his face. “He has no relatives
and neither did Karen, at least not that he knew of. And he
knows that if he doesn’t arrange for Alex to go somewhere,
the courts will just assign him a quardian.”
David turned to face me on the sofa and took my hand. He looked
worried. “Mark, I told him yes. I told him that we would
take Alex. Please don’t get mad but that little boy has
been through so much. His mother dead and now his dad is dying.”
I guess that I was as stunned as David. I brushed my hair
back with my hand and then looked again at David. “Hun
I don’t even know if we can legally do that.” I
ran my hands through my hair again. “I just don’t
David laid his head on the back of the sofa and covered his
eyes with his hands. “You don’t want to do this
do you? Oh fuck, I should have asked you first.”
I pulled David next to me. “David that’s not true!
It’s just that I don’t know the whole legal thing.” I
laid my head next to David’s “The thing that……..well
that I’ve always regretted about being gay is that I
couldn’t have kids, I even stopped thinking about it,
just accepted it as fact. But god what a shitty way to get
David turned his head toward me and spoke softly. “Mark
I need to hear you say this. Would you really and truly be
in favor of this? We can’t change our minds and this
is gonna make a huge difference in our lives.”
I picked up David’s hand and kissed it. “Yeah,
it will make a huge difference but even considering that, I
would be in favor of adopting Alex if we can. We’ll have
“Well Helmut has thought about that too. Frankly nothing
is totally clear but he hired a Washington law firm and one
here in Milwaukee to make this happen. They’ve told him
that we can probably do it. And for the money he’s paying
them, they’re probably right. In any event they’ve
already been paid to fight this forever if they try to stop
it. Helmut doesn’t feel that there’s a reasonable
second choice. I mean he can pay a virtual stranger to raise
Alex but he feels that we would be more like real parents.
Not that it matters but he’s set up a pretty substantial
trust fund for Alex.
“David how would we raise Alex, I mean the logistics
David had pretty much gotten control of his emotions. “Oh
god! For one thing remodel the house. I’d move my office
here and probably work on more of a part time basis. With our
company it doesn’t really matter. I can work from anywhere.”
“What about the nurse that came with them. What’s
her name? Renatta?
“She’s going back. I already asked. I figure we
could hire some sort of housekeeper.
“David let’s go to bed.” I pulled him off
the sofa gently and held him in my arms. “No more decisions
or thinking tonight, you need sleep.”
“David?” We were walking toward the bedroom. “If
I was Helmut, I would have come to you too. You’ll be
a great dad.”
“We’ll be great dads. This is the two of us, Alex
is gonna have two dads. Helmut was very specific about that.”
The following day David called me at work and asked if there
was any way that I could come home early. He said that Helmut
was coming over with his attorney and there were things we
might need to go over with them.
When I came home there were several strange cars in our driveway.
I walked in the front door and there was a blond haired,
blue eyed, little boy about three feet tall standing there
dressed in blue corduroy shorts and a white polo type shirt
He smiled and pointed his finger up at me. “Whoooooo
are youuuuuu? If I didn’t know that there might be a
German accent I wouldn’t have detected it.
I put my briefcase down and hunkered down so that I was on
his level. I smiled at him. “My name is Mark. Who are
you?” I wasn’t sure if I should shake hands with
a three year old.
He smiled widely. “My name is Alex.” He emphasized
his name and then as an afterthought he held up three fingers. “I’m
I smiled at him again and decided to ask him about shaking
hands. “Wanna shake hands?” I held out my hand.
“Yesssss!” He smiled and tried to shake my hand
normally but his hand was too small and he seemed confused
by that but then he grabbed my thumb and shook that. Then in
a way that only kids can do he became suddenly intimate and
leaned with all of his weight on my knee and asked. “Are
you gonna be my daddy?”
“Would you like that?”
He was using my knee as a post, kinda climbing up it and lifting
his legs off the floor. “Maaaybeee.” I could hear
David talking to someone in the den. The door was closed.
I stood up. “Alex, would you come with me while I change
“Where we goin?”
“Just down the hall, so I can hang up my suit, then
we can play.”
Alex and I walked to David and my bedroom and I changed into
jeans and a sweatshirt while Alex talked a mile a minute. Why
did I wear a suit, why did I put on jeans, why was Joe just
sitting there? It never stopped even as we walked into the
“Alex, do you want to watch television.”
“Is Barney on?”
“Uhhh, I don’t know. Let’s look okay?
“Okay.” Alex climbed on the sofa with me and laid
his head against my side. I felt that this was one tired and
probably confused little boy. I put my arm around him and flipped
on the tv.
“That’s not Barney!”
“Okay, we’ll try another channel until we find
Barney. You wanna close your eyes for awhile till we find Barney?” But
Alex was already asleep.
How did I feel about this little boy? He was a totally adorable
little kid but my oh my, how he would change our lives. How
many doubts did I have? They were beyond counting. One thing
though outweighed all others; if we didn’t take Helmut’s
son he would end up in the care of a total stranger. Thrown,
in effect, to the wolves. No doubt they would be well dressed
wolves with the best of intentions but they would be wolves
none the less. David and I had already made the decision that
we wouldn’t let that happen.
Death can come suddenly and so quickly that the person dying
doesn’t even realize that it’s happening and
it can also come slowly and when it does you can feel it
in the person dying, you can feel it spreading.
When I shook hands with Helmut I was certain that this man
didn’t have months or even weeks to live, in fact I felt
that he had at best days and maybe only hours before the end.
“Helmut, it’s very nice to meet you at last. David
has spoke of you often.”
“Did David tell you what a pain in the ass I was with
him when we were at university together?”
“Helmut you were never a pain in the ass.” David
placed his hand on Helmut’s arm.
“Ah David, you’re being kind because I am now
ill but I really was a pain in the ass.” He turned to
me. “Even at school David was special. He had a way with
people. He was like a magnet. We all came to David.”
Helmut looked down at his hands for a moment. “Mark,
that man that just left he is Mr. Hollingcraft of Hollingcraft
and Kendell, he witnessed my signature. David spoke to you
about Alex of course?
“Yes Helmut, he did. I won’t even try to tell
you how sad we are……..but we will do our best for
“Mark…..the thing…..that would make me…..the
most happy…..is if you think of Alex as your own. Not
that he should forget me but he must have living parents.
Helmut looked pleadingly at David. “David, I must go
now. Would you call Renatta and my driver?” He turned
to me. “The pain comes but Renatta has pills.”
I took Helmut’s arm. “Helmut we could drive you,
or you could stay here.”
“No, no Mark, I have a house, it’s not far and
Renatta will take care of me. My car is just outside.”
David had left the room for a moment and returned with Renatta
and Helmut’s driver in tow. Renatta handed Helmut a pill
and a glass of water, his hand shook violently as he drank
and she moved to steady it. As they were walking out the front
door, the driver helping Helmut and Renatta carrying Alex,
Helmut stopped and turned to me.
“I was not always this way Mark,” he seemed to
mentally shrug, “but we end how we end.” He turned
back to his driver. “I’m ready now.”
The call from Renatta came late that night. She had gone to
give Helmut his final pain pill before going to sleep and he
was lying in bed with a book in his lap, dead. She called us
not knowing what to do, whether to call the police or hospital
or what. David called Hollingcraft and he arranged for an understanding
doctor to issue a death certificate and the body was taken
to a local funeral parlor.
Fortunately Alex slept through all of it and we moved him,
while he slept, to our guest room, now his room, and it was
where he awoke the next morning. Joe slept at his feet, under
orders from David and Renatta was in the other guest room.
When I got to work the next day I went right to Frank’s
office and told him the whole story.
His response. “Holly fuck!” And then. “How
can I help you son?” I didn’t say anything but
that was the first time that Frank had ever called me son.
”Frank, David is going have to work mostly out of the
house and we need an architect that can design us a remodel
and get it built in record time. Oh and a housekeeper, we need
a housekeeper too.”
I looked at Frank for a moment. “Frank, can we do this?
Is this possible or are we just crazy?
Frank walked slowly over to an arm chair and sat down. “I
assume that you’re talking about the adoption not the
remodel.” He smiled at me. “Sit down Marky.” I
sat opposite Frank. He rested his chin on his chest and then
slowly raised his head. “In and ideal world I believe
that a kid should be raised by a mother and a father.” I
started to speak but he stopped me with a raised hand. “This
is a very unusual situation, normally there are relatives of
some kind somewhere but here there isn’t and under these
circumstances I think Helmut made the right decision. You can
do this Marky. Rather, you and David can do this. And probably
better than anyone else.” Frank sat forward and looked
directly at me. “I trust you guys to do this.” He
smiled. “The kid is lucky to have you.”
As I’ve already noted Frank is a lot like David only
older and more experienced. Give Frank a problem and a phone
and he becomes a force of nature. Two hours later he had an
architect and a draftsman out at the house preparing rough
plans for the remodel, the contractor had already been hired
and equipment was headed our way. The housekeeper was turning
out to be more of a problem and Frank had put Marcy on the
When we woke up the next morning David and I were no longer
holding each other, instead there was a little blond boy and
a taupe colored dog lying between us.
David looked at me over Alex and Joe, there was a bit of panic
on his face.
“Mark, do you have underwear on?”
“Huh? Whadya mean?”
David pointed at Alex who was still asleep. “We can’t
be naked with Alex.”
I wasn’t really awake but still. “Why not?”
“You’re not suppose to let kids see you naked!”
“David, I saw my dad naked every day of my life when
I was a kid.”
David got out of bed and slipped on the shorts that he had
dropped the night before. “Aren’t you going to
put on shorts?”
I smiled. “David, if seeing cock made guys gay everybody
on the planet would be queer.”
David seemed to think about that for a moment. “But
we’re his dads.” We were whispering.
“Well, I don’t think we should have sex in front
of him, but I’m not gonna start wearing pajamas or stop
showing my lover affection and I don’t think he’ll
even notice.” I turned to face David and sat crosslegged
on the bed. “I don’t think we should do anything
in front of Alex that we wouldn’t do in front of anyone.
After all, Helmut knew we were gay. Babe I think the thing
we need to do is relax with Alex, he’s a really bright
kid, and I think he’ll be able to deal with anything
he sees. I mean it’s not like we do weird stuff. But
one thing we should probably do is get an electronic latch
for the bedroom door, something we can release from the nightstand.”
David seemed to be thinking. “Not right away Mark” He
looked down at Alex and touched his hair. “I think right
now he needs to be able to come in here and sleep with us.
God knows what pain he’s in or how frightened he is.”
David left with Joe. Joe needed to go out and David wanted
to start breakfast. I laid my head back down on the pillow
and looked over at Alex. His bright blue eyes were wide open
and he smiled at me. “Where did Joe go?”
“Good morning Alex. Joe had to go out and pee.”
Alex sat up and leaned toward me. “I have to pee too.”
I rolled over on my stomach and looked at him. “Well,
I’ll tell you what. Why don’t we go pee and then
we can take a shower before breakfast. Wanna do that?”
Alex looked surprised. “A big boy shower? Not a bath?”
“Would you rather take a bath? You can if you want to.”
“No! I want to take a shower!” Then as an afterthought. “I
don’t know how to take a shower.”
“It’s really easy. I’ll show you how.”
I sat up. “Let’s go Alex, we’ll pee and
I walked naked with Alex into the bathroom. He really didn’t
seem to pay any attention to it at all. In the bathroom I helped
him off with his pajamas and put him in front of the toilet
so that he could pee.
“Why don’t you wear pajamas?” Alex was pointing
“When you get big you don’t need them Alex. You
don’t get as cold as you do when you’re little.”
“I don’t wanna wear em either. I’m big.”
I looked skeptically at him. “Well, we’ll see.
But right now it’s shower time.”
I started the shower and adjusted the temperature very carefully. “Okay
buddy, hop in.”
Alex gave me a very uncertain look. “You go first.” He
pointed at the shower.
I laughed and took his hand and we walked into the shower
together. I could see right away why they don’t usually
give kids showers, the downward spray kinda overwhelms them.
Alex seemed to get a big kick out of it though as long as I
protected him from the direct spray. Finally the way to do
this dawned on me and I put Alex in the corner, took my shower
quickly and then took the detachable shower head which is on
a hose and brought it down to Alex’s level. Now he loved
it. I scrubbed him down and then we played with the water,
mostly Alex turning the hose on me.
When we were finally done I called David and while he had
a bit of a shocked look on his face he recovered quickly.
“You guys showered?”
“Yep. Get that big towel David and I’ll give you
a wet little boy.”
Alex giggled. “I’m a wet big boy!”
David wrapped Alex in a huge white towel and dried him thoroughly
as I was doing the same to myself. I wrapped the towel around
my waist and started to shave. Alex was watching my every move
and asking about twelve questions a minute.
In between Alex’s questions David mouthed the question
to me. “Has he asked about his dad yet?” I shook
my head no.
Once we were all cleaned up we went into the kitchen and ate
breakfast. Renatta was there and helped with Alex although
he just seemed to accept her as a given.
After breakfast David and I took Alex into the living room.
David picked Alex up and put him on his lap facing him and
I sat next to him. David ran his hand through Alex’s
“Alex, you know that your dad was really, really sick?” Alex
just nodded yes.
“Sweetheart, I’m sorry but your dad died last
“Oh.” He looked at us both. “My daddy is
in heaven with baby Jesus?”
“Yes Alex, he is.”
Alex pointed at both of us using two hands. “Are you
my daddy’s now?”
I took Alex’s hand. “We sure are buddy. And Joe
is your dog.” Joe upon hearing his name walked over and
sniffed Alex. Alex petted his head.
Alex turned to David. “Can I watch TV?”
“You sure can son.” Alex and Joe sat on the floor
in front of the television set watching Barney.
Back in the kitchen David laid his head on my chest. “Do
you suppose he really does know?” I wrapped my arms around
“I’m sure that he does David. He knew his dad
was going to die. He may not truly grasp all of it but I’m
sure he knows that his dad is gone forever. Though I’m
not sure he’s able to understand what forever is.
“Helmut wanted his ashes spread over the campus in Madison.
Do you suppose that’s legal? He said that was the happiest
time of his life and where he met Karen. By the way Alex is
a citizen you know. He’s got dual citizenship.”
I was still holding David. “Fuckem we won’t ask
we’ll just do it. When is the service for Helmut?”
“Tonight. Very brief but tasteful and Alex should have
something to mark this. I sent out a bunch of emails this morning
so maybe there’ll be a few people there.”
About a hundred people showed up, much to my amazement at
least. There were several very important people there, heads
of major companies and many foreign companies sent the heads
of their US offices.
Alex handled it all pretty well although I’m pretty
sure that he really didn’t get the point of it all but
he shook a lot of grownup hands of people he never met and
while this is not the sort of activity a three year old can
take for very long, Alex seemed to understand on some level
that it was important that he do this.
When it was over about nine o’clock he was leaning against
me like he was exhausted and I picked him up and carried him,
his arms around my neck and his head on my shoulder. At home
David and I undressed him and put him in his pajamas and tucked
him in with Joe lying next to him. We both kissed him goodnight.
Back in our own bedroom David and I undressed for bed. “It
was good of Frank to show up for the service.”
“Yeah I’m going to send him an email thanking
I slid into bed and held the sheet up for David. He got in
next to me. “You know that we’re gonna have a boy
and a dog in here with us tomorrow morning.”
David laughed. “I know.” He pulled my arm around
him and covered it with his own. “You know what Alex’s
been through would be tough for an adult. I wish I knew what
he was thinking.”
When Alex comes up to me and says, “Dad, why……………………..?”,
something inside my head says. “Yes! That’s how
it’s suppose to be.”
However, Alex is fully capable of starting a conversation
that way about a hundred times a minute.
“Daddy why do you do that?” I’m doing pushups.
“Cause daddy needs to stay in shape.”
“Why do you need to stay in shape?”
“Cause….” Alex has given me an idea. Anyone
who does a lot of pushups on a regular basis knows how boring
they become, like any exercise. You just get used to doing
however many you do and that’s it but then I remembered
a guy I was in the Army with, he told me that when he was at
home he had his son climb on his shoulders and did his pushups
“Alex. Wanna do me a favor? Wanna help daddy?”
“Okaaaayyy!” Alex had his hands in the pockets
of his brown corduroy pants.
I dropped all the way to the floor. “See that towel
Alex? Get that and bring it over here.”
Alex brought it. “Now what?”
“I want you to spread that out on my back. I want you
to climb on my back but I don’t want you to get wet from
“It’s okay if I get wet.”
“No Alex, your other daddy would be mad at me if I let
you get all sweaty.” I grinned at him.
Alex laughed. “Yeah he would be mad if I got wet.”
Alex spread the towel out on my back. “Okay buddy now
climb on. Lay down on my back and hold onto my shoulders and
“Okay.” Alex climbed very carefully onto my back
giggling all the time.
“Now hold onto my neck, okay?”
I did the first pushup and Alex was thrilled. Three year old
boys make all kinds of noises when they’re thrilled and
screaming is one of them. It wasn’t long before I saw
a pair of brown loafers and tan slacks in front of me.
“What are you guys doing?”
“Alex and I are doing pushups. Aren’t we Alex?”
“Yes! See daddy, I’m not getting wet.” Alex
was talking to David.
”I see. You’re a good little boy but hang on tight.”
I did a hundred more pushups and got a fantastic workout but
I’m sure as far as Alex was concerned it could have gone
The remodel on the house had begun. We were adding a partial
second story that actually was gonna add to the looks of the
place a lot and we would also gain a large bedroom, a room
that could be used for a sitting room and a bathroom. The whole
idea being that it would be a relatively attractive space for
like a live in couple.
David’s office space was being done as a twenty by forty
foot addition off the side of the house and would provide him
essentially with everything he had at his regular office.
The thing that we were having a problem with was finding a
housekeeper, live in or otherwise. Our primary consideration
of course was Alex, so whoever we got had to be good with kids.
Our secondary consideration was our own privacy, David’s
and mine. I mean as it was it really didn’t matter if
we walked around in our underwear or for that matter totally
naked, although we rarely did that even before Alex.
David in his usual thorough fashion set out to learn everything
there was to know about raising kids and especially little
boys. I didn’t do that, for one thing since David was
doing it we would at least have the information in the family,
and for another thing I kept thinking back to my own childhood
and how I would have liked it to have been. I guess that I
wanted structure because structure is security but I also wanted
warmth. I didn’t get that from my dad and I was determined
to see that Alex did. That meant, to me, that I needed to draw
Alex to me in the sense that we did things together, we talked
to each other, we laughed together. Alex responded to this
and in a month or so we had a much happier little boy on our
hands, a little boy who burst into our bedroom in the morning,
a little boy who laughed a lot.
During this time of learning to be parents one of the many
things that suffered was our sex life. It’s pretty hard
to get comfortable about fucking when you know that your little
boy can come bursting into the room at any moment. The fact
of the matter is that we were both so fucking horny we were
about to go crazy. We needed a babysitter and we found one
in one of the young women now working in David’s office.
David showed up at my office at 4:30 on a Friday afternoon.
He had just waved to Frank as I saw him coming down the hall
to my office.
“Hun, what are you doing here? Who’s with Alex?”
“Joan, the young gal from my office, she watching him
tonight. When she was over the other day helping me with a
report she got to playing with Alex and they just seemed to
click.” David sat on the corner of my desk. “Don’t
look at me like that, anyone that works in my office has been
checked out by the best in the business. We have to, the information
we have floating around there is too sensitive not to.”
“David are………” Then I realized,
considering David, how stupid the question I was about to ask
was. “Sorry babe, you know how paranoid I am when it
comes to Alex.”
David stood up and walked over and picked up my suit coat
and tossed it to me. “I’m taking you to dinner.
And don’t give me a hard time, I’m on very good
terms with your boss.”
When we stepped into the elevator David immediately pulled
me down into a kiss, a very long, very deep kiss. “God
I need you.”
“David unless you’re planning a real quickie I
don’t think the elevator ride is long enough.” The
elevator stopped and took on passengers.
When we finally reached the parking garage David motioned
me to get in his car. “I’ll drive, I know where
this restaurant is.”
I turned in my seat as David was driving. I put my hand on
the back of his neck. “What did you do David?”
He smiled and then sighed. “Don’t be mad Mark!
But we need a place where we can get away and we can both use
this for entertaining.” We turned into a highrise condo
on the lakefront.
I looked at David. “You didn’t buy the whole building
“Are you really mad?”
“You bought the whole building?”
David pulled me to him for a kiss. “No smartass.”
It was a beautiful one bedroom condo about ten floors up with
a great view of the lake. David had had it furnished by a designer
and it was really nice. Very put together and yet very comfortable
too, not some super chic kinda place where nobody is ever comfortable.
Obviously David had already been here preparing dinner, the
table was set and candles were lit everywhere.
David looked at me. “Don’t start feeling guilty!
We’ll be home before midnight.”
I wrapped my arms around David and kissed him. “Geez,
I do feel guilty. But I’m gonna do it anyway.”
“You’re not mad at me then?”
I kissed him gently, just below the ear. “Baby I could
never be mad at you. It’s a great idea.” I laid
my face against his hair and smelled him. David always smelled
so good, clean and very, well, David. It was a joy to touch
him, to run my fingers over his face, to taste him, to know
that he was mine.
It was like a slow dance, we, in the middle of the living
room kissing and slowing turning about each other as we undressed
each other. Finally I pulled David into the bedroom and we
layed on the bed. I pushed David’s legs back and buried
my face in his ass, licking, gently biting and sucking. His
ass was in the air and I was holding him there while I ate
out his butt. I could look past his cock and balls and see
his head on the bed slowly turning back and forth, his mouth
open and little gasping sounds coming out.
I wet my index finger and slowly shoved it into him. “Oh
fuck yes! God damn Mark, that feels fantastic! Gimme more.
More!” I twisted my finger until it touched his prostate
and he made the David sound. Pulling my finger out I spit on
his butt and then shoved two fingers in. David was gasping
and trying to push with his butt as I stretched him. Then I
shoved in a third finger and all of him but his head came off
the bed. I leaned forward and sucked his balls gently into
my mouth. He grabbed my head and held it for a second, then
slowly released it. “Fuck I almost came there!” I
laughed and slowly lowered his butt to the bed but I kept his
legs bent back with my arms as I positioned my cock at his
“Oh fuck yes! David wiped his forehead with the back
of his hand.
Our eyes were locked on each other as I pressed forward, first
feeling his ring of muscles snap shut behind the head of my
cock and then slide down it as I pressed into him. He was digging
his fingers into my upper arms as I pushed into him and his
face was contorted first in pain and then in pleasure.
“Fuck that feels good! Oh fuck Mark!”
I bent further over David’s body and kissed his deeply
while I slowly fucked him. “Babe you feel so good inside.” I
kissed him again and wrapped my arms around his head.
I laid my head next to his as we fucked, my dick slamming
into him with greater and greater speed. “Is this the
way you like it David? This feel good?”
After fifteen minutes or so I lifted my body up and David
straightened his legs while I held them apart with my hands.
I tilted his body up a bit and then I was slamming directly
into his prostate. We were both sweating and breathing hard.
I defocused and grabbed David’s cock and as soon as I
touched it it went off and David came as only he can, spraying
cum everywhere. I pulled gently out of him and jerked off onto
his chest. We collapsed together exhausted.
After we showered we ate the dinner David had made earlier
and then washed the dishes.
We were leaning against the counter and turned and looked at
I said. “David, I miss Alex.”
“I do too. This place was a mistake.”
“No David I didn’t…………..” He
silenced me with his hand to my mouth.
David layed his head on my chest. “This isn’t
where we belong. We’re gonna have to learn to fuck after
Alex goes to sleep. We need to be in our house with our son.”
I leaned down and kissed him. “Let’s go home.”
Thirty minutes later we stepped silently into Alex’s
room. Joe lifted his head and started to wag his tail. We both
walked over and kissed a sleeping Alex and after pulling his
blanket back up to his chin we walked together back to our
I slid naked into bed and held the sheet up for David, he
slid in next to me and I wrapped my arms around him.