The Good Doctor 12
Just a normal family out for an after
dinner stroll. Me in Levi’s and a pink tee shirt, Pete
in dress slacks, white shirt and loosened dark blue rep stripe
tie and walking between
us or rather sometimes skipping between us and sometimes dawdling
between us, Jase, pale blue little boy sweat shirt and tan
little boy cargo pants. The kid dresses better than I do.
Jase runs ahead for a second and then
runs back and wraps his hand around my fingers. What is going
through his mind?
Why did he instigate this? It occurs to me that I’ve
never been in Pete’s house. That’s pretty stupid.
Well, the houses on the street are pretty much alike and he
always comes over to our house. The thing is that I’m
not thrilled with going to his house. I want him to forget
about his house!
Eleanor’s gotta be goin crazy if she’s
I can tell by the drapes that I can see hanging in the living
room window that this place is gonna make ours look like shit.
Every time Pete takes a step you can see the bulge of his cock
in his pants pushed off to the left. Why are we doing this?
Since he’s not driving his car and doesn’t
have the thingy to open the garage door Pete lets us in through
the front door. The foyer is floored in different but similar
colors of slate tiles.
Holy fuck! This house may be “kinda” like ours
but this is unbelievable. All the colors are kinda the same
and yet at the same time they’re different and everything
seems so fucking elegant and………..well…………planned.
Jase takes off running through the house but something on
my face must have alerted Pete because he pulls me into the
kitchen. Kitchen! Fucking granite counter tops!
Pete pushes me back against the counter in an attempt to control
my attention and keep me from getting spastic. His arms are
hot on my arms and his body is pressed close to mine as he
tries to gentle me.
“My fucking god, Pete, this place is…………..!
“unfucking believable! You never……………...!
Kiss! With tongue.
“told me that you lived like this! Shit our place…………..!
Kiss! With tongue and caressing.
My house is decorated in 1960’s Italian American, pretty
basic. Lot’s of formica.
Pete pulls me away from the counter and
wraps his arms totally around me. Mostly to try and calm
me down and keep me from
seeing all the other neat stuff that I don’t have at
He’s holding my face in his hands. “Eric, don’t
glower at me!” I don’t glower! “This is just
something that designers did!” My mom was my designer! “This
was THEIR idea of how a doctors house should look!”
It’s not the money, although this cost him plenty, it’s
the taste, something that I obviously have none of and if I
don’t have any taste how long can I expect him to keep
loving me when he obviously does have taste, like in spades.
“I could afford to do this too ya know!” Yeah
like that’d happen!
Jase screaming. “Dad, the shower has got a whole bunch
of places where the water comes out!” A multi-head shower!
I bet that it’s all glass too with beige marble walls!
I can hear Jason running around.
I feel like I’m quivering and then Pete speaks softly
to me. “I know that you can afford to do this. Do you
think I’d have brought you over here if I thought that
it was gonna be a problem?” I start to open my mouth
but he kisses me again. Well, it’s not the worst way
of shutting me up.
“Eric, you gotta understand how little this place means
to me. It’s just somewhere that I came to when I left
work, a place where I did laundry. It was never a home. Mostly
it was a place that I sat and tried to think of a way to meet
you.” He was playing with my hair, twisting it. “I
was sooo lonely here.” How can a person look like Pete
does and feel lonely? Yeah, I know, it’s possible.
Jase comes running into the kitchen and
grabs my arm. “Come
on, Dad! You gotta see this place.” Then suddenly he
stops and looks like he’s just realized something. He
looks up at Pete and tightens his grip on me.
“Pete, I don’t want you to live here.” He
looks at me. “We can make our house look nicer can’t
we, Dad? I don’t want Pete to come back here to live.”
I kneel down in front of Jase. “I don’t either,
Jase.” Jase has maneuvered us into a moment of truth.
I look up at Pete. I can’t read him. “But this
is adult stuff and its something that Pete and I have to talk
about.” I rub my hands on Jase’s arms. “There
are lots of things that have to be decided, Jase.” Great!
I’m supposed to be an adult?
I stand up, touch Pete’s arm and whisper to him. “You
have any porn mags or dildo’s or stuff like that around
here?” He actually blushes!
“No, no, nothing like that!” I’m
amazed because if I lived alone the place would be awash
“Nothing? None of that?”
He tilts his head and grins at me. “No, the place is………….well……..clean.”
“Oh good.” I hunker down
in front of Jase.
“Sweetheart, I want you to go play in Pete’s
bedroom. Go through the drawers and report back.”
Jase’s eyes light up and he yells. “Okay!” He
takes off, little boy running.
I stand up and look at Pete, he’s so handsome and is
standing there with a somewhat perplexed look on his face.
He looks hangdog tired but he’s smiling.
I sigh. I’m suddenly incredibly tired too. I reach out
and place the palm of my hand against his heart, it’s
beating strong and it comforts me.
I don’t know how to say this, how to make him really
understand. I looked at him and tilt my head. “You probably
won’t wanna do this but I need you,” Take a breath! “need
you to live with me…………..with me and
Jase. I can’t live without you but I can understand why
you wouldn’t wanna do that, to commit yourself to that.” I’m
rambling and I’m not making sense and I know that but
I can’t shut up. I just keep fucking talking! “I
know………..I know that you’re spending
most of your home time with us and that’s been wonderful
but we’re probably freakin you out. Hell we even freak
me out and I certainly couldn’t blame you for not wanting
to leave a place like this because I sure as shit woul…………………..” He
didn’t let me keep rambling. He shut me up with another
kiss…………..a kiss and a tongue down
my throat. Geez, he’s got a long tongue!
Pete’s body is pressed to mine
pushing me back against the counter and his face, now that
we broke the kiss is pressed
to mine. He speaks very quietly in my ear.
“You’re fucking nuts you know.” Shouldn’t
doctors say like maybe, fornicate, instead of fuck?
I nod yes, my cheek rubbing against his
neck. I answer just as quietly but I feel calmer now. “I know. I’m
not usually this stupid.” A lie. “It’s just
that where you’re concerned it’s like things get
kinda short circuited in my brain.” His arms are around
me and they feel warm and good. I can feel him breathing.
He turns his head and looks around. “I’m
gonna lease this place out. No point in selling it the way
values are going up around here.”
I pull back in a panic and search his
not leaving town because of what I said?” This is really
my mom and dad’s fault. They made me this nuts. “You
don’t have to move in!”
He wraps his right hand around the back
of my neck. Geez he’s
got big hands.
He stares straight into my eyes and then
slowly shakes his head. “Eric…………nobody’s
going anywhere. I’m moving in with you and Jase….permanently…like
a family…like we are.” He starts shaking his head
again. “How can you not understand how much I love you?”
Good question! “I don’t know,
Pete. I was a scrawny kid that looked like shit on my best
day. I guess that I never
got past that.”
He pulls my head to his chest. God this
feels good, warm and safe. “You’re not a scrawny kid anymore!” He
kisses the top of my head. “I know that I’ve already
harped on about how great your butt is but beyond that you’re
a fantastically handsome guy.”
I snuggle my head more firmly against
his chest. I guess that I really oughta listen to what he
has to say. “Yeah……..right!
You sound like my mom.”
I hear Jase come pounding through the
house and then he bursts into the kitchen. “Dad, Pete has got really cool stuff!” He
grabs my hand to get my full attention. “He’s got
a flat screen television in his bedroom too!” He’s
pulling on me. “Come on, Dad, you gotta SEE this stuff!”
I look back at Pete. “That comes with you doesn’t
it?” Okay, so I can be bought, big deal!
“Honey, you’re gonna give Eleanor a fuckin heart
attack!” Vintage Rose.
“Rose, if she minded her own business it wouldn’t
even be an issue. Besides she’s gotta have known that
Pete was on the verge of moving in. He was like spending every
minute at my house.”
“Well, Sweetheart, is it finally
official? Has he actually moved in?”
“Yeah, pretty much. We carried over most of his clothes
last night. That’s when Eleanor was running from room
to room watching us. I couldn’t tell if she had a phone
in her hand but I’m sure that she was passing the info
on to my mom. Mom called this morning. She actually sounded
“Well, Babe, she got her wish, now she doesn’t
have to worry so much about you fucking things up…………relationship
“I won’t fuck this up, Rose. I’ve
never felt this way before.”
Rose laughed wickedly. “Yeah, sore! What’s he
doin, porkin you two, three times a day?” She laughed
again. “Oh you lucky boy! I’m jealous!”
Oh this woman! “I wasn’t talking about sex, Rose!
Not everything is about sex! That’s all that you think
about and by the way shouldn’t you be taking medication
for that or something?”
“Honey, you mean to tell me that you’re not getting
any? I woulda thought a stud like that’d be plowin you
“He is, Rose! He’s fuckin me all the time! My
god, if he was fucking me any more I wouldn’t be able
to walk!” Why am I telling her this? How the hell does
she get me to talk about this stuff? Geez she’s a dirty
“And how is Jase handling all this? He doesn’t
resent having an extra dad, does he?”
“No, Jase likes Pete better than he likes me.” But
I’m still his dad!
“What’s he think about his dad sleeping with another
guy? Can’t be that anything prepared him for that.”
“I know, Rose and believe me that I’ve thought
about all of that. It’s not just his dad sleeping with
another guy but also the whole occasional nakedness thing but
he just seems to ignore it. But then we’ve been goin
to the gym together for a year or so and he sees naked guys
there and it doesn’t seem to faze him. Still, he sees
us kissing and stuff, not that we make like a public display
of it or anything but he does see it but if it bothers him
he doesn’t show any sign of it.”
“Darling, you think that you’re
gonna survive this evening?”
“Oh, you heard about us taking
mom and dad out to dinner?”
“Yep, you goin to Mary Chang’s
“Yep, it’s supposed to be
great. She and I were in high school together, we were pretty
good friends, still
are. She seemed to adjust to the whole gay thing pretty well,
she probably knew that I was gay before I did.”
“Honey, everybody knew that you
were gay before you did!”
“You know, Rose, you have a very
cruel streak in your nature.”
“Who’s gonna watch Jase for
you tonight, or are you taking him with you?”
“He’s coming! Jase is my insulation. He guarantees
that my mother won’t kill us all, which, believe me,
is always a consideration.”
Pete is wearing tan light wool slacks
and a dark blue shirt. The blue of the shirt really accentuates
the blue of his eyes
and they seem to be incandescent, almost electric. I’ve
got my new Dockers on and a red Polo shirt. Pete comes up to
me and straightens my collar. While he’s in the neighborhood
he bends down and kisses me.
He drapes his arms over my shoulders
and pulls my face close to his, when he talks his lips are
brushing against mine. “You
look really handsome.” Now that he pretty much committed
himself to me, us, he’s kinda gotta say stuff like that.
I want to just bury my face against his chest and have him
hold me for the rest of the night. But there’s no way
that that’s gonna happen.
“It’s not too late. You could still have an emergency
at the hospital.” This is Friday night and the possibility
of his actually being called to the hospital is real as are
the phone calls that he’ll receive this evening from
patients, pharmacists and nurses at the hospital. You can’t
tell by watching him whether or not all of these intrusions
bother him, he smiles and goes on like they didn’t happen.
Tomorrow at least he’ll be able, probably, to stay home,
no office hours and only the phone to interrupt him. Tomorrow
we’ll stay in bed until maybe nine, sending Jase to watch
television and we’ll make love, slowly, completely, with
the door locked.
He tightens his grip on me. “Nothing bad is gonna happen.
We’ll buy your mom and dad dinner, dodge as many questions
as possible and be back here as early as possible.” He
runs his fingertips lightly over my eyes.
“Thank god for Jase! He’s our ticket out. Can’t
keep a little boy up too late.” I hope that this kid
doesn’t grow up and ask me to explain all this.”
Mary Chang met us wearing a Chinese red cheongsam and a six-carat
on her left hand. The Chang family was very good at managing
restaurants and even better at managing money.
She strode forward, the high slit in her dress showing a well-formed
leg, reaching out she took both of my hands in hers and presented
her cheek to be kissed.
“Eric, I have sooooo missed you!” I opened my
mouth to speak but she had already turned towards Pete. “You
muuuusst be Pete.” Damn that Rose!
Jason touched her arm. “I’m Jason!” Nobody
will ever accuse Jase of being shy.
Mary hunkered down in front of Jase.
No small trick with the high spike heels she was wearing. “Oh, Sweetheart! It’s
so wonderful to meet you. I went to high school with your mother.”
You knew my mom?” Guilt, guilt, guilt, guilt, guilt,
Mary’s jet black hair drops forward and she sweeps it
out of the way with a red lacquered fingernail. She nods. “We
used to eat lunch together every day, in the cafeteria.” Reaching
forward she touches Jase’s face lightly. “You weren’t
born then. You’re mom wasn’t even married then
but she knew that she wanted you, wanted a little boy just
like you.” Jase is staring at her entranced. I can feel
a smile frozen to my face.
Thank god my mother came hurrying towards
us. I never thought that I’d be this happy to see her and I really shouldn’t
be because Mary was just telling Jase about his mom and that
shouldn’t be a big deal worry thing but I guess that
it is. Guilt.
Mom actually looks great! Weird, I usually,
like always, see her in an apron, cooking but now she’s actually dressed
up like a normal person and she looks good. Thanks to Miss
Clairol her hair is a pretty auburn color and is carefully
styled, she’s wearing a beige suit with a gold blouse.
She stops four feet away. “Doctor O’Connor!” Oh
lord! “I aaammm sooooo happy to meet you!” She
clasps her hands together in delight and then moves forward
and takes Pete by the arm, totally ignoring me, Jase and Mary.
She gonna end up liking him better than me, I can see it all
now. Mary stands up and gives me an eye roll. She’s known
my mom for a long time.
After his talk with Mary, Jase grabs
my hand with a vice like grip. Looking down at him I get
the feeling that he’d
really like to be picked up and held but I know that given
where we’re at that would embarrass him so I just ruffle
his hair and pull him against my side for a moment in a guy
hug. Mom is already twenty feet ahead of us pulling Pete along.