The Good Doctor 55
Later that evening my worst fears are confirmed when Ken comes
over with a big ass leather portfolio case loaded with blown
up pictures of me. I should be happy right? But I figure
that I already have a job and as much as I love being ogled
I’d rather that it was done only by Pete. Okay, that’s
probably a lie.
Pete and Ken are sitting on the sofa
going thru the photos and I sit on the arm and glance at
them. The only one that
stands out to me is the one of me holding Jase. The shot is
taken from the middle of my chest and you can’t tell
that either one of is wearing anything and he caught us at
a moment that I didn’t even know existed. It looks almost
biblical, the questioning look on Jase’s face and the
look of love for my son on mine, you can really tell that Ken
knows what he’s doing. It’s good, it’s really
really good.
Ken sees me looking at the photo and
says, “I’ve
already got three offers for it. I been faxing stuff all afternoon.
Eric, you just gotta do this. Opportunities like this just
don’t pop up every day.” He turns to Pete. “You
guys could pay for the kid’s education with this.”
I wished to hell he hadn’t said that about being able
to pay for the kid’s education, now I’m gonna feel
guilty if I don’t do it. Fuck!
“I’ll do it.”
Pete looked up surprised. “You’re sure? Eric….it’s
gonna….”
“I really am sure, Pete.”
I turned to Ken. “What kinda money
we talking here?”
He handed me a check and said, “If you agree to the
terms, that check is just for the pic of you and Jase. I’m
pretty sure it’ll be the cover of Men’s Health
magazine in September. They’re doing a whole “Dad’s” issue
and the editor almost wet himself over that shot. And there
could also be more coming just on that one photo. It’s
good shot for posters and stuff.”
The amount of the check surprised me,
shocked me actually. “Holy
shit! I’ve got some more shots of Jase at home if you
want em.”
Ken looked a bit uncomfortable. “Guys, the big thing
would be tomorrow. A really big thing. You’ve heard of
Aaron Combs, the designer?”
Pete nodded and said, “I’ve
got a couple of his suits.”
“Well he lives down here on the sound and he’s
got his entire fall line at his boutique in New Haven. Basically
it’s a retail store but he likes to work there and he’s
kinda built an office and work room there in the back. It lets
him stay at his house here for the summer without having to
go into New York and it also lets him see how people are reacting
to his stuff on the retail level. Nobody knows that he’s
actually there and he likes it that way. The thing is that
he wants you to come in and try some of his stuff with me shooting,
just to see how it comes out. This could be really big. If
he likes you, and I can’t imagine him not, and if he
likes my shots, you’d be made as a model. The payoff
would be huge.”
Jase pulled me down onto his bed and positioned me exactly
the way he wanted me. I’m pretty sure this is because
we’re in a strange house.
He layed down next to me and then wiggled into the exact place
he wanted to be. My left arm was over his shoulder hugging
him to me but not too hard.
He twisted his head against my chest
and looked up at me. “Okay,
tell me the story about when I was born.” This is like
the zillionth time that I’ve told this story.
I squeezed him closer to me and said, “It
was a dark and stormy night.”
“No, Dad! The real story!” Jase wants this repeated
exactly, no variation and for sure as hell, no editorializing
by his dad. “And go slow, Dad, don’t say it all
at once like sometimes.” He hates being cheated out of
the full experience.
I settle down and pull him closer, his
head is against my chest. “It was just about this time, Jase, about nine
o’clock. Your mom looked at me and said, “I’m
pretty sure we better go.” And then she said….
Ten minutes later he was sound asleep.
Hearing about his mom and how much she loved him always makes
him feel good. It makes
me feel good too. I kiss his forehead and carefully pull my
arm from around his neck and gently get out of bed. It really
doesn’t matter, he sleeps like a rock.
In the living room Pete is lying on the
sofa reading the paper. He looks up and says, “Being born?” I nod yes and
he smiles. “It’s a big thing to kids.”
“I think it’s not being in
his own bed.”
Pete smiles but doesn’t look up from the paper. He says
quietly, “That is his bed.”
“I know but you know, really his own bed.” Honestly
I didn’t see this coming.
Pete lowered the paper. “I know what you mean, Eric,
but that really is his own bed, because from now on that’s
his room. At least here on the sound.” He grabbed my
hand and pulled me down on top of him while he chewed on my
neck and sent me into orbit. He twisted around and pinned me
gasping solidly beneath him. His huge hands were holding my
head while he stared into my eyes. “I want the boys to
understand that what’s mine is theirs.” He grinned
crookedly at me. “But I gotta start with you cause I
think sometimes you forget.” He’s right.
I sigh. “I know…but you still love me, right?” I
wiggle my crotch against his. “I mean no matter how stupid
I act you’ll never stop…right?”
See, unconditional love is a big deal to everybody!
Pete groaned, he does that a lot, then buried his face in
my neck.
I dressed up for the drive to New Haven, I mean it is the home
of Yale University. I wore a new pair of khaki’s that
I swear I don’t remember buying and red Polo shirt
that Pete bought me. I felt like Fred Astaire. I also kinda
felt like a stripper going to a sleazy bar for a party. I
mean after all the point of this was to show off my body,
well in a way. The thing is that I haven’t really done
shit to deserve this body, it was like a gift from my grandpa.
While I watched the miles go by I wondered about how he’d
of reacted to this and I figured he’d of loved it.
A chance to scam the whole world and be adored, it was kinda
what he was into.
The store that we went to was beautiful.
I couldn’t
bring myself to call it a boutique but then I don’t think
I could call anything that. We barely got the door open and
Ken was walking towards us with his hand out to shake. That
felt odd. There was about four guys hot on his heels and they
all looked to be about twenty-five and they all had smiles
on their faces, which is good. There was also one lady, who
was about our ages who turned out to be the makeup lady. She
was really nice and kept smiling at me. Course she also kept
running her fingers up and down my arm but I’m pretty
sure she was just being friendly because it was obvious that
I was with Pete.
Ken took us into this room that was setup
just like a bedroom but not just any bedroom. It was really
elegant, all dark rich
fall colors and really expensive looking with things strewn
artfully about. Actually it looked like Pete’s old house.
I’ve pretty much cured him of all that.
Pete was next to me making soft moaning
noises because I’m
pretty sure he was fondly remembering his old digs. He said, “This
is really nice. We could do something like this at our place.” Geez,
what is it with homo’s and decorating? I think our house
looks fine. Kinda seventies chic. We change it now and in a
year or two it’s gonna be what everybody wants and then
where will we be?
Deciding I need something to get his
mind off of fall colors I lean close to him and say, “You suppose they’ll
want me naked?” He looks at me like I just bit the head
off of a live chicken. “Cause I didn’t wear underwear
just in case. I read someplace that you shouldn’t wear
underwear before a shoot cause it leaves like marks on your
butt. I’m pretty sure my butt feels really smooth. Wanna
feel it?”
There’s a deep noise coming from the back of his throat
and sometimes I wonder if I push Pete too hard but I figure
his being a doctor and all that he’d know if his heart
was getting ready to blow. He wraps his arm around my neck
and pulls me tight to his chest, real tight.
His voice is deep and low. “Eric, behave yourself! I
know the temptation here is to just go nuts and wreak as much
havoc as possible on the vulnerable but these guys might not
know that you’re kidding and three of them already have
hardons.”
I whisper, “Hardons! You’re fucking kidding! Where?” And
I try and look around but his arm won’t let me. Somehow
I find the thought of hardons nearby to be energizing.
“Eric, could you stop thinking about sex for like twenty
seconds! Hardons or no hardons there’s work to be done
and Ken’s reputation is at stake.” Out of the corner
of my eye I see Ken walking towards us. “Just let Ken
direct you. Do what he tells you.” That seems reasonable.
Ken drags us onto the set or bedroom
or whatever it is but it doesn’t feel very bedroomy when you’re inside
of it looking out. For one thing there’s tons of lights
all being focused towards me, three still cameras on tripods
and one bigass video camera. This really fits my idea of what
the set of a porn movie would be like.
Ken pulls me off to the side of the set
where there’s
a big table covered with clothes and a big rolling rack from
which all kinds of crap is hanging.
He holds up a tiny pair of white men’s briefs. “Eric,
his is Aaron’s new underwear line, it’s a really
big deal to him and we’ll be getting to it but first
I wanna see you in some of his fall things. I’d like
to see how those colors work on you. I want you looking naked
but with one of these suit coats on with maybe the topcoat
draped over your shoulders. We’ll work it and see what
happens. So why don’t you get ready and then Sheila can
do your makeup and we can get to work.”
I looked around. “Ah..so how do you want me?” Ken
looked confused. “I mean, am I gonna be naked?”
“Oh! No, no, you can change just behind this wall. Just
underwear will be fine. There’s some hooks back there
and a chair and stuff.”
“Oh, cool. So when do you want
me to do that? I mean now?”
He nodded while staring at the back of
a black camera that he was changing the settings on. He nodded. “That’d
be good. When you’re ready c’mon out and we’ll
decide on the best way to set this up.”
I took the briefs in my hand and they felt like a handkerchief,
all light and flimsy and I was pretty sure that you might even
be able to see thru them.
The area behind the back wall was about four feet wide and
seemed to run the length of the back wall, maybe fifteen feet
and it was unfinished, just two by fours and wallboard. There
was a guy leaning against on of the walls smoking a cigarette.
He had on old torn jeans and a tee shirt that looked like it
was about a hundred years old. His blond tipped hair was hanging
down over his forehead but he flipped it up when he saw me.
He was really pretty much a slob. We bonded instantly.
I nodded to him. “I’m supposed
to put on this underwear and then go back out there.”
He ground out his cigarette on the floor
with a twist of his boot. “Cool. I’m supposed
to help ya.”
I grinned. “I already know how
to get undressed.”
He smiled back at me. “I know, it seems simple but it
gets way more complicated. Everything has gotta be just so,
ya know?” He shoved off the wall and took the briefs
outta my hand and held them up. There was a small twitch in
the corner of his mouth but other than that he seemed totally
uninterested. “Cool. You oughta look good in these.”
“It’s a good thing there here. I…I
kinda forgot to wear underwear today.”
He grinned. “Yeah, me too.” I knew I liked this
guy! “Well, let’s get you into these.” He
gripped my polo shirt at the sides and started lifting up.
Once that was off I sat down to take off my shoes.
I said, “You worked for Ken long?”
“Who?”
“Ken, the photographer. You do work for him, don’t
ya?”
“Oh sure. I didn’t know who you meant cause I
work for a lot of em when they come here. But he’s cool.” He
took my shirt and hung it on a hook and then moved my shoes
out of the way as I took them off. He squatted down in front
of me. “You got a nice chest.” His hand reached
forward and brushed across my chest. Work out much?”
“Mostly swimming but some weights
too.”
“Cool. You Italian? You look Italian. Your skin…it’s
all..Italian like.”
“Guilty as charged. Actually, I’m only half Italian
but it’s like an eighty percent half.”
He kind of pointed at my nipples. “You ever think about
getting them pierced? I got mine pierced.” He pressed
his shirt against his chest and I could see huge nipple rings
outlined against the fabric. “See!”
“Shit that looks painful!”
“No, it’s great! You gotta try it! Makes your
fucking nipples like way more sensitive! Here, check this out!” He
grabbed my hand and brushed my fingers across his nipples while
his head fell backwards and his mouth opened in a swoon. “Fuck
that feels good!” Okay, this is definitely weird.
I pulled my hand back as gently as I
could and said, “I
gotta get into these,” as I reached for the underwear.
He kind of sat back on his haunches and
said, “Yeah!”,
while staring at my crotch.
He was getting a dreamy far away look in his eyes and I figured
that the best way to handle this would be to turn my back on
him and try and hang onto what little dignity I have. As soon
as my back was turned I slipped quickly out of my pants and
put my feet into the briefs but before I could pull them up
he made a sound that was like a gurgling groan and the next
thing I knew his hands had latched onto my upper thighs and
his fingers were digging into my flesh. Just as I leaned forward
to grab one of the wooden studs to hold myself up I felt him
bury his face in my butt with his tongue feeling like it was
drilling for a 50,000 barrel a day gusher inside of my ass.
I can’t remember but I’m sure I yelped as I tried
to get my balance but the next thing I knew I felt his fingers
being torn off of my thighs and he was screaming in shock.
I turned to see Pete with one hand on the back of the guys
belt and the other hand with a strong grip on the back of his
neck as he pressed him up towards the ceiling yelling, “Say
goodbye to the world you pathetic piece of shit!”
Just then Ken burst thru the door and
yelled, “MR. COMBS!!!
What are you doing? That’s Aaron Combs!!”
My head was lolling back against the
headrest in Pete’s
BMW as we sped thru the finally cooling late afternoon on our
way back to Madison. I held up the check again and turned it
over in my hands.
“Ten grand for a days work isn’t bad. Along with
the other check it’ll really help the kid’s college
fund.”
Pete’s jaw was set. “I’d
have paid ten grand to get to kill him!”
I snuggled down in the seat feeling very
safe with Pete. “I
think he was just lonely.”
Pete looked at me quickly and said, “I think he was
just horny! And besides we have no idea how many other real
models he’s done this to. Eric, you didn’t need
this work so we were in a position to stop it but maybe some
of these guys really need the job and have to put up with that
pervert.” Okay, he did have a point there.
Later that night in Jase’s room he turned his head into
my chest and then looked up at my face. “Before I was
born did you know that it was gonna be me?”
“Absolutely! I had sent in a purchase order and everything.
I was guaranteed that it’d be you.”
“You can’t do that, Dad. You can’t
order a baby.”
“Well it’s true that they don’t take phone
orders but I actually sent in a purchase order. And I kept
a copy so they couldn’t gimme a hard time later on the
price.”
He sighs and tries to decide if it’s worth the fight.
He smiles and says, “Was I expensive? How much did I
cost?”
“As I remember model 332057a, that’s
you, was on sale that month, two for $39.99. But I only took
one so
I had to pay $22.50”
He yawns but still twists around so he
can get a better look at me. “That sounds awful cheap.”
I nod and bend my head so that I can
kiss the top of his. “That’s
true but babies are a kind of do it yourself arrangement. You
get em but they’re all little and you gotta feed em like
forever before they turn into anything. That’s the real
expense.”
He twists around some more until his
chest is pressed against my side and he’s talking into it. Sleep has almost claimed
him. “Did…I…come…with a guarantee?” His
left hand comes up to his mouth as his eyes begin to close.
I kiss the top of his head again and
inhale his clean little boy smell, the smell of angels. “Didn’t need one,
Jase. You were perfect from the very beginning.” But
he doesn’t hear it, he’s already asleep.